Birthday Blues

[purple_carpets]

Title: Birthday Blues
Rating: PG-13
Wordcount: 3250
Disclaimer: Not my boys. Kripke did a better job breaking them than I ever could.
Summary: Five times Dean didn't celebrate his birthday and one time he did.

Look at me guys, this is my first ever 5 times fic. I'm disproportionately excited. Fill for - obviously - 'Birthdays' on my angst_bingo card. This

Comments

[si_star_x]

Yeah. I wanna cry now. You're just so awesome, you know that, right? Love you, byeeee.

Yay for alcohol. *high five*

[purple_carpets]

*hugs you and pets you and kisses your head until you stop crying*

:D *high five*

Dean was very appreciative of his birthday gift, by the way. I think I#m going to give it to '89!Dean. Just so the poor thing stops crying...

[si_star_x]

*Sniffles* I think I'm okay now. Poor Dean, he deserves some happiness and gets nothing.

[saberivojo]

Ackk. You do this all the time. I want to cry and then maybe pet baby!Dean.

It also makes me wonder what it could have been like, the kind of dad that John could have been.

*deep sigh*

Thanks.

[purple_carpets]

I wonder that all the time. There are so many different versions of the guy floating around and while I don't buy the very fringe ones (i.e. cuddly daddy of the year and maniacal abusive basket case) I think he could have been everything in between and I think he wanted to be a good father, but sometimes he just utterly failed.

[serendip50]

Oh God....that's so sad, it's bordering on abuse.

John is a heartless bastard here and his insignificant efforts are worthless.

Sam started off well...*sighs*.

Poor Dean.

[ktrisha]

I agree with you completely. On another note...I LOVE your Icon....

[purple_carpets]

I'm not sure I agree. But then I'm not sure I disagree either. There is an undercurrent of hands-off, unintentional abuse, yes (and I think that's certainly there in the actual show as well) but I don't think John is heartless. It's more that he has a shitload of issues he never even began to work through and his priorities are screwed to hell and he doesn't have the first clue when it comes to raising kids, but he still cares. Just doesn't know how to show it.

[serendip50]

Maybe you are right... and I always loved John and still do.

However, in this fiction... I just felt that John could have tried harder and not been so tactless or so involved in his own misery. I think Dean must have felt a little 'taken for granted', maybe. He certainly wasn't at the forefront of John's considerations, just a tool:).

Maybe I'm reading more into it than was intended. i do get carried away....lol.

[ktrisha]

Loved your story. I know who Sam is going to play with after Dean came back from hell....

Well written several of the scenes made me cry.

[purple_carpets]

What? Play? Nono, Sam's getting groceries. Jeez, didn't you listen to what he said?

Anyway, sorry for making you cry. *hands over tissues*

[unplugged32]

Painful but well done:)

[purple_carpets]

Thank you :)