Made it in! It was quite the journey, and I'll share the details later. Wanted to let all of you know I was here safe and sound.

Almost everything is packed. I'll be heading out early tomorrow and I'm about to pack the computer up too. Not sure when I'll be able to get online again, probably mid-week, so pray I have good driving weather.

Well, it's been a fun weekend here, heh. I've been helping Tiffany get moved in over at her mom's. It's a long slow process, and it all feels really sureal.

Very soon now and this will all be over.

So, finally ready to talk about this really trying day. It began by staying up until 9 am reading a David Brin novel I couldn't put down. Waking at 1:30 for my last day of work, I was tired and still feeling a little sick from whatever this damned "flu" that's been going around is ( Read more... )

Browsing on bluelight and realized they finally put up the The MDMA Uber-FAQ.

Pretty proud to see what they did with it, as I laid down a lot of the initial groundwork for it. They've done a really great job editing it all into a very easily readable or browsable format.

Long day, but not a bad one. Starting to get over whatever this cold thing I've caught is, and the depression seems to be lifting again some. My time here is almost up, and as it gets closer, both sets of emotions build in intensity. The rage, frustration, loneliness and sadness. The hurt is there, and it's strong. But, there is also ( Read more... )

"Patriotism is a fine hothouse for maggots. It breeds intolerance; it forces a spindle-legged, spurious riot of colour ( Read more... )

I realized today, how very bitter I am right now, and how that's been coloring things from my worldview to my interactions with people. If you've been offended by my bitterness, if its seeped out and hurt people, I apologize. It will pass.

So, my main problem with writing lately has been that I'm so distracted by all the other shit, and my routine is in such disarray, I haven't been spending any time daydreaming about my story or where it is going. Which means, when I sit down to write, I'm utterly blank. I couldn't write the next scene until I understood what was happening in it ( Read more... )

Wanted to say thanks to all of you for the encouragement and kind thoughts these past few weeks of hell. It's really kept me sane.