So you know, I've been through depression before and though it was medically induced, I'm still susceptible, and do have a delightful case of anxiety. All of which is to say I really, really get it. I promise to say as few unhelpful things as possible, and assure you it's OK to call me on it when I screw up and say unhelpful shit.
Well written. I identify with much of this so hard, and I'm really hoping that you--that both of us--have better days ahead. But meanwhile I'm just really, really hoping we have the strength to accept the present moment for what it is. (gdi, that sounds like platitudes. not meant to be.)
Ah yeah, "Actual Me." Sightings of my Actual Me are rare indeed, and when people ask me how I'm doing I've long since passed on being real with the truth. Working on it, though. (Sometimes I think it would be darkly hilarious to lay it on them, but then I remember their reaction is unlikely to be helpful/supportive.) I hope you're better at learning the balance between Actual and Public than I am. ♥
Thank you for this. It's very difficult for those of us who have never really been down that black tunnel of despair to understand and to know what to do and say that is helpful. As someone who is miles away from you in age, experience and actual distance, there is probably little I can ever do or say that might possibly be helpful, even though I do care what happens to you. I remember how much i liked you when FK introduced us and on the few subsequent times we met, and being sad when you moved from Manchester as I had hoped to spend more time with someone I thought of as a new friend.I wish you the strength to carry on fighting and defeating your demons and a more positive future than you see for yourself. And I have never liked you for what you Do, only for who you ARE. Hugs, if you can accept them.
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Beautifully said.
So you know, I've been through depression before and though it was medically induced, I'm still susceptible, and do have a delightful case of anxiety. All of which is to say I really, really get it. I promise to say as few unhelpful things as possible, and assure you it's OK to call me on it when I screw up and say unhelpful shit.
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Ah yeah, "Actual Me." Sightings of my Actual Me are rare indeed, and when people ask me how I'm doing I've long since passed on being real with the truth. Working on it, though. (Sometimes I think it would be darkly hilarious to lay it on them, but then I remember their reaction is unlikely to be helpful/supportive.) I hope you're better at learning the balance between Actual and Public than I am. ♥
Thanks again for sharing this.
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