Musing. Or whining. Or musing-whining. I can't decide. Just skip this post.

[ptownnyc]

Motivation. Sometimes it is hard to hold on to. The trick is to keep going even when you don't feel it inside. This, at least, is what I am telling myself

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[d2leddy]

Demello was right I think

Who is that?

We crave the validation like a drug.

Validation is belonging. Acceptance into group, no?

[wlotus]

But there is no doubt it is an older body trying to achieve my goals right now, and I am well aware that it is going to take a year or more to get anywhere recognizable. I look in the mirror and notice the bags developing under my eyes, and wonder if I have just left everything until too late in life to turn things around.

This sense of futility is what led me to quip to Ms. T the other day, as she pinched the fat around my middle, "Stop pinching my extra that I cannot get rid of." She arched an eyebrow at that and questioned my verdict. I question my verdict, too.

But the truth is, I have little interest in putting in the kind of time you put in at the gym, so I feel I won't ever get rid of it, no matter how healthily I eat and how regularly I do yoga to improve my flexibility, at least.

[sunsmogseahorse]

Hey, mister. Can we IM? I need to talk with you about something.

[changeling72]

I think it's great that you drag yourself down there and have lost all that weight. All I do is think about it...

[d2leddy]

Why is my self image such a fragile thing?

It's kind of sad, really.

I don't think it is sad. We love you.