i'm finding myself in the strangest mood.  it's like an empty, full, amazing, terrifying, nice, scary, wonderful mood.  and i'm not sure why.  i've been thinking, this is terrible timing.  like, life is always terrible timing.  it's all about finding something you want when it already belongs to someone else, or going to pick stawberries and then ( Read more... )

so last night i had perhaps the most fritening dream of my life.  i don't really remember the beginning part, but at some point i was with a group of people and we were outside of this large mansion/house/castle (i can't remember exactly what it was like), and all around the place there were tall trees and it was kind of woodsy.  and misty.  and ( Read more... )

terrible, sleepless night last night.  i woke up like ten times.  i had a dream.  we (concert choir) went to paris again for a recording session.  and i was over there driving my parents van.  i think i drove it to paris actually because i had a bunch of stuff in it, liek school stuff, like laundry and books and whatever and i was like planning on ( Read more... )

i've been having dreams about dogs lately.  lots of dog dreams.  what does that mean?  and i've been thinking about things i don't really want to.  i've been thinking about things.  i don't want to think anymore.  i just want to jump up and be somewhere else.  i kind of.... i wish i was a bird.  because i really want to fly.  that would be so much ( Read more... )

i think i threw up last night/.  maybe on the carpet.  i think i'm still drunk/.  my head hurst.,  i hoipe i can make it through adrians recital.  i called lots of peopel alst ngiht.  whjiel i was durnk.  and woke them up.,  my throat hurts so much.  so much.  i think i threw up for a few hours.  i fell asleep in the bathroom.  i feel so bad for ( Read more... )

i'm gonna make a list of things i am doing/need to do this quarter:

1.  educate the prospective members of delta omicron, which includes 2 fun meetings a week and setting up initiation.
2.  initiation for mortar board.  it's in less than 2 weeks and i haven't even finalized the program yet.
3.  turn 22.  this i can do.  actually, i'm excited for it ( Read more... )

a list of reasons i will always need to come home to lakewood:

1.  it's easter morning and there's almost a foot of snow outside.  it's been snowing non-stop all day long.  it's tragically beautiful.
2.  nothing is better than lakewood drama.  i go to otterbein high thinking it's drama central and then come home and i'm like, oh yeah, otterbein's ( Read more... )

we were talking about strange phenomena tonight.  like deja vu.  and i was saying how i get it all the time.  and when i do it's really strong.  and i can always remember that i knew it would be a deja vu.  like i'll say "woah, i'm having bad deja vu" and that will be part of the deja vu.  that's so weird.  that that happens.  i never really think ( Read more... )

well i was going to say something about mr. rabel, but i noticed on facebook that suddenly everyone who went to lakewood is in love with him, so i won't comment at this time.....

in other news, i think this quarter is already fun.  i'm staying up way too late, not doing work and goofing off already and it's wonderful.  i actually enjoyed my ( Read more... )

well, you knwo, i'vebeen thinking..... i'm not ready to graduate.  i'm mostly drubnk right now.  by thew ay;/ .   but i'm not sure what i want to do afer i'm done in collgeg.  i guess i could be a teadher.  but trehre are very few jobs open for me.  and i could have gon eot grad schoo,b ut now it's too late.  so i dont' knwo./   i'm drubk and at ( Read more... )