Oh my God, I am so sorry...I don't even know what I would do if that happened to me. It's like a whole piece of yourself, just gone. :( I'm sorry. And I wish there was something I could say that would be in any way comforting, but I know that if that happened to my journal, absolutely NOTHING would console me. I hope tomorrow is a better day.
Thnak you, Katy. Today (which is yesterday's tommorow) has been a better day. I do feel like i lost a part of myself, but i bought a new journal, and things seem to be looking up. Thank you so much for being understanding, though, i knew that you would know the feeling.
I had a journal like that my summer before high school. I'd written a lot about a boy in it and got so disgusted I ripped every single page out of it, mailed it to him, and told him to do whatever the hell he wanted with it.
I didn't keep a personal journal after that and haven't been able to use planners and such seriously.
My dreams have been equally disturbing, I had a dream a guy I just started dating came in my house and was going to shoot me but he left, came back in, and was standing at the foot of my bed with the gun to his head and I was robbed of my voice to stop him.
I woke up screaming and realized I'd just been hearing the stupid wind on our screen door since I've been sleeping on the stupid floor.
I'd rather that all my notes had been ruined by water than sent in an angry envolope.
That is sad, Casey, about sending him the pages. Im sorry that you wish you hadnt done it. And your dream really is disturbing. Ive always been fascinated by the types of dreams you have though, they all seem to be so vivid and strange, yet relevant.
I know this is the kind of thing you really do NOT want to hear, but I think it's clear.
It's all erased.
That is, what's the point of venting if indeed it's not an attempt to rid yourself of this energy. It feels like it's some sort of big, dramatic super venting. An ultimate purge, if you will.
I mean it really really really sucks to lose something like that, it feels like you've lost a part of yourself. But maybe you did just that. You lost parts of yourself that you have intentionally shed.
I didnt really want to hear it, but i needed to. I do feel like i have molted in a way, and the things i dont remember to write down again really arent that important anyway. I think that in a way, this was a lesson to not hold onto things too hard.
Thank you, you put things into words that I wasnt ready to yet.
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I didn't keep a personal journal after that and haven't been able to use planners and such seriously.
My dreams have been equally disturbing, I had a dream a guy I just started dating came in my house and was going to shoot me but he left, came back in, and was standing at the foot of my bed with the gun to his head and I was robbed of my voice to stop him.
I woke up screaming and realized I'd just been hearing the stupid wind on our screen door since I've been sleeping on the stupid floor.
I'd rather that all my notes had been ruined by water than sent in an angry envolope.
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It's all erased.
That is, what's the point of venting if indeed it's not an attempt to rid yourself of this energy. It feels like it's some sort of big, dramatic super venting. An ultimate purge, if you will.
I mean it really really really sucks to lose something like that, it feels like you've lost a part of yourself. But maybe you did just that. You lost parts of yourself that you have intentionally shed.
You've molted.
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Thank you, you put things into words that I wasnt ready to yet.
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