Fic: And the Angel said: "Fuck it." And All the Bullshit of Heaven Could Not Convince Him Otherwise

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Title: And the Angel Said: "Fuck it." And All the Bullshit of Heaven Could Not Convince him Otherwise.
Words: 2,172
Genre: pre-slash/slash (sort of walks a fuzzy line between those two) episode(s)-tag.
Rating: PG 13
Characters: Cas, Some mean-ass angels, Dean.
Spoilers: Up to the finale of season 5; Tags "The Rapture" and "Lucifer Rising"

Comments

[tracy]

You've captured so many things about this pairing that made me fall in love with it back in season four, from Castiel's absolute devotion to the way Dean always manages to move him to the sense that Castiel's story is fated to be a tragic one to the sense of rightness when they slot together. Love it. ♥

[proxydialogue]

Thank you my dear!! You are so good to me. <3

Someday, I *will* write them a story that is canon without being so tragic. Maybe. Well, I'll try anyway.

:) Thank you for reading.

[zatnikatel]

Oh my freaking God, this is just - I can’t even. It’s beautiful.

It is more like a great, purposeful river that runs and runs and runs-smoothing every stone in its bed down to mud-without ever running dry.

I just love that so much: the notion of them wearing down any corners or rough edges he might have developed, so he’s effectively featureless, and stripped of what makes him Castiel, just waiting to be brainwashed and imprinted by them. It feeds back so perfectly into that moment when he does take Jimmy’s body back and he’s so cold. All through this I was just thinking of some stark white room, no stimuli, just them inside his head, whispering and sort of disembodied. Wow.

He made a broken noise when he realized that he was reaching for his human heart, and that it was back on earth, and that it wasn't his.

His grief that his borrowed heart isn’t his: gorgeous. I love his terror but through that he’s still trying to hold onto some part of himself, daring to think about feeling hatred for soft, and knowing exactly why they

[proxydialogue]

My love, you are so unbelievable good for my self-esteem.

"All through this I was just thinking of some stark white room, no stimuli, just them inside his head, whispering and sort of disembodied." That is almost the word for word description of his position I had in my head. Really, there was a whole paragraph about it that I cut because it just didn't fit. This means that you are an awesome reader, which we knew already.

I'm always excited when you read my stories because you always seem to find all the little details and loops I put in thinking "well, maybe no one will see this, but it makes me feel cool anyway" and then you come along and list them, and make me feel even cooler.

And then I remember you are one of the bamfest writers in this business, and then I'm all warm and fuzzy inside.

Thank you!!! You are the cheese, and the eggman, and the Queen of rock and roll.

[zatnikatel]

LOL, you flatter me, but honest: I think you're the BAMF, cheese, eggman and queen of rock and roll in this conversation! It's just such a pleasure to read fic that the writer has thought about.

[mulder200]

Wow! You certainly do have a way with words. This was amazing and I loved the way you described Castiel being washed of his humanity like a river smoothing stones over time.

Nice imagery.

And that last line? Funny as hell and priceless!

[proxydialogue]

Thank you! The river seems to be a favorite, which makes me super happy because I probably spent 5 minutes trying to think of an appropriate simile. (Sad, right?)

I'm glad you like it.

And your icon? Is like some dream I wish I was having, right now.

[nightrider101]

Oh, wow! This has just blown my mind completely. It's one of those stories I had to read a couple of times because I was sure I missed something.

Incredible writing from start to finish. This is why I fell in love with Dean and Cas.

*mems*

[proxydialogue]

*picks up your mind and hands it back* ...sorry, my bad. :) I am both flattered it warranted multiple reads, and sorry, as it may have been over ambiguous narrative confusing the action, on my part. It's a bad habit, for real.

Thank you! I'm really glad you enjoyed it.

[angel_kink]

*cries*

So beautiful. Love this. I wish I could leave a more detailed comment, but I LITERALLY cannot find the words. It's so good.

[proxydialogue]

Never fear. Shakespeare was the wordsmith and even he was sometimes like "I have no words."

Speechless is one of the best compliments to recieve. :) Thank you.