Ugh Lunchtime...
Okay, so I know I am not alone here when I say I hate lunchtime. It is almost 1:00pm, and I dread the fact that I don't have very many more calories to spend today. I have introduced myself last night, but forget to really describe myself to everyone. I am telling the truth when I say that I am very embarrassed to discuss and reveal my stats to you all. You all sound so small already! I know you may disagree, but I am at the very beginning of this huge uphill battle, and so please know that I realize my stats would probably make you grossed out, but I am please asking for support as I have a long way to go! I will update you all on my progress almost daily if I can. For me, it will be easier to lose probably half the weight, then the rest will be harder and will come with dedication and exercise. Well here goes, please be kind when I say that I am sorry you have to know these stats! :/
Ht: 5'8"
HW: Right now (GROSS) 230lbs I think
LW: 135lbs
CW: 230ish
GW1: 200lbs
GW2: 170lbs
GW3: 140lbs (And yes, you don't have to tell me, I know that for some of you this is still a ton!)
But I am tall, and I am 24 years old, so I no longer have my "high-school" body! Ugh. It is a lot harder to lose weight. Please know that at 140lbs I do look great, and that if I did have a goal of 100lbs like a lot of you, I would surely be in the hospital or on my death bed.
Another hard part that I am sure most of you don't have to deal with (let me know if you do!): I am a twin! Yes, identical. I have found that it is very hard to be be ana when my twin is living with me. We share an apartment together. I have been compared to her my whole life, and right now she weighs about 60lbs less than me or more. It is really hard to see her everyday and think that that is what I SHOULD look like too...we're twins afterall right? Oh gosh. I am very depressed, and have severe self image issues. I feel HUGE and hate seeing pictures of myself. I have pictures posted all over my room now of how I used to look. It's a start I guess...
Ht: 5'8"
HW: Right now (GROSS) 230lbs I think
LW: 135lbs
CW: 230ish
GW1: 200lbs
GW2: 170lbs
GW3: 140lbs (And yes, you don't have to tell me, I know that for some of you this is still a ton!)
But I am tall, and I am 24 years old, so I no longer have my "high-school" body! Ugh. It is a lot harder to lose weight. Please know that at 140lbs I do look great, and that if I did have a goal of 100lbs like a lot of you, I would surely be in the hospital or on my death bed.
Another hard part that I am sure most of you don't have to deal with (let me know if you do!): I am a twin! Yes, identical. I have found that it is very hard to be be ana when my twin is living with me. We share an apartment together. I have been compared to her my whole life, and right now she weighs about 60lbs less than me or more. It is really hard to see her everyday and think that that is what I SHOULD look like too...we're twins afterall right? Oh gosh. I am very depressed, and have severe self image issues. I feel HUGE and hate seeing pictures of myself. I have pictures posted all over my room now of how I used to look. It's a start I guess...