I understand the fascination

[princesswhore]

4 year anniversary of Lensey's death today. I am 2 years older than she was when she died. As Chris said yesterday, "I can barely feel it now." I've let go mostly, except writing this post I am about to cry. I found a small drawing of hers the other day. Just a doodle really. I wish I had some of her other ones but I don't think I saved any of them

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[chemolimolayna]

I identify with this post so much it scares me. The 3 year anniversary of my best friend's death was last week and my emotions towards it were so detatched yet deep at the same time that I couldn't make any sense of them. Anyway I hope you're okay and I'm sorry for your loss. <333

[princesswhore]

I'm dealing with it a lot better now. A couple years ago I would have gotten shitfaced drunk. Now I feel sad because I've accepted it, and because she was older than me but I've really surpassed her in age. I also didn't see her much the last 2-3 years she was around. I missed her funeral because I didn't find out until right after. She had such an impact on me when we were teenagers.

I'm sorry about your friend. It's really hard to deal with. I saw your post and looked back at your posts 3 years ago so I would understand fully what you were talking about....

I feel so awful for my older brother. He's lost over ten friends from a really tightknit group he's known since he was 12, all from car accidents, drug overdoses, and suicides. Now he takes it all in stride and it's awful to get to that point where you can just say, "oh, it's another day."

I'm sorry you can relate but thanks for your comment.

[love_war_snow]

Its hard losing someone we know and care about especially to death because it's so final. When you lose someone so young it's even more painful. I'm sorry she has passed. <3