i have the most perfect kitten in the whole world, well two of the most. but only one is really mine ( Read more... )

you know those rare moments of clarity that you sometimes have? tonight is just one of those nights. chain smoking and contemplating everything. on the verge of being so tired that my whole body is on the verge of giving out at any moment. but not wanting to go to sleep. wanting to savor every moment of this beautiful peaceful nothingness. wanting ( Read more... )

so sometimes my job is stressful. obviously. i take care of 6 babies ( Read more... )

sometimes i do things i think to still prove to myself, subconsiously, that theres a little part of myself that still hates me.
i can be so masochistic stometimes
especially after whiskey
i really want to crawl under something and die right now.

update ( Read more... )

i just got out of a 22 hour stay in the emergency room. yep you heard me 22 *hours* 22 hours of lying on a bed, getting 2 cat scans done, not being able to sleep, listening to people throw up, getting pelvic exams done, having someone come and take my vitals every hour, having them inject stuff into me that made me feel like my blood was boiling ( Read more... )

at this very moment iam eating ben and jerrys chocolate ice cream and watching when harry met sally ( Read more... )

i love deeply, passionately, and without reservation.
and for me that is enough.

i feel so sick ( Read more... )

so heres the plan ( Read more... )