inside/outside: loathe to explain

[porphyre]

The air bit with a chill that didn't match the bright sunlight. I was on a bus traveling from my apartment to a doctor's office I'd never visited at the university of British Columbia. The view from the bridge might have been pretty, but to me it was nothing but a view of the recent oil spill. I did not know what to expect at the doctor's office.

Comments

Wish I had the words

[spasmsproject]

I don't know what to say, Jhayne. A platitude? You deserve better than that. Last we talked, you said you didn't like being told you deserved anything, so let me rephrase that: *I believe* you deserve better than that

[angela_n_hunt]

I don't have your email, or I would write to you right now.

I have no advice. I have no words of comfort. I can only tell you that I love you.

I love you.

[natowelch]

Even at your lowest, you're an inspiration.

[mordicai]

I've been dealing with PTSD from waking up under anesthesia a year ago; getting a very same vibe. Ugh, life. The one good thing is: if you are alive, you are winning. Right?

[birdfigment]

You bring such beauty to the world through your words and images and very being. I cannot conceive of that as not "succeeding" in some way.

I do understand that success does not equal a pain-free life. I am sorry for the pain that you have been suffering for so long. I hope that the beauty and joy that you take from the world can serve as a balm to that pain, and wish you more of that.