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Sep 07, 2009 01:48

I go on a date with this kid whose kind of still tripping on acid to Truck. He is sweet, kind of a cornball. I don't think I'm actually as interested in having sex as I'm trying to be, because I could fuck him but instead talk about how cruel I can be ( Read more... )

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estrobutch September 7 2009, 16:34:16 UTC
"I need to figure out a different way of doing things. So much of my energy is going into sustaining passing ( ... )

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starfrosting September 7 2009, 20:38:20 UTC
I'm like on the opposite end, expending too much emotional energy into wishing I could pass- not even as a regular dude or whatever but just a goddamn boy more often than I usually am. There is just no rest for the weary huh? But, you know, you can make it work. (Shit, I make it work- it's just that most of the world/imaginary people I don't know but might want to do it with don't know.)

I just took a shot after months of not doing it, what am I thinking?

spacily yrs--

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porn_into_this September 8 2009, 02:33:31 UTC
Totally. Moving through the world without that constant leech of correctttting people time and time again, or not and just feeling gross, is such a privilege! I don't mean to sound whiny, although I probably am being...I'm more just interested in ways of doing things that work which I don't think I'm quite carrying off right now. I think I just kind of had this expectation that once I started to pass everything else would just fall into place which it doesn't

I don't know your history with taking hormones, but I'd like to hear?

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starfrosting September 8 2009, 10:06:54 UTC
I just think it would be fabulous to recover sparkling confidence that's not so bound up in other people's perceptions. That's something I want to work right now.

More on the biomedical end later, x Oli

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