ooo. i havent been this excited for a long time. me, my mom, my aunt, and my cousin [megan] are going to new york city tomorrow! our sole purpose is to shop lol. thats what makes it so much cooler. we are going to be there for 4 days... so from tomorrow morning until thursday night. i dont have a spending limit which im even more happy about lol ( Read more... )

so let me just start by saying... warped tour rocked my world. geez. we saw so much goodness in such little time. it was great. its such an amazing enviornmnet to be in... thousands of people who are crazy different yet at the same time, arent that different after all. everyone is there for the same reason - the music.

we saw billy talent first, ( Read more... )

oooo. i heard from dan today. ♥. it was like the happiest moment of my life. he was phoning from halifax. he got me a little worried because he told me that the crazy hurricane thats going on in flordia is going near halifax. and then he told me they almost drove off a cliff and to wish them luck on not dying. it was a great feeling lol. but he ( Read more... )

the past two days have been possibly two of the most uneventful days of my life. yesterday i moped around all day like something inside of me just died lol... and today i moped around all day like something inside of me died yesterday. oh shit. im so fucking pathetic it makes me sick.
at least ive realized that even thought dans gone, everything ( Read more... )

we walked outside and hugged each other for what ironically felt like less than a second and more than a million years. i could barely even get the courage to hold back from crying and tell him just how much i am going to miss him... how much i already miss him. he held my hand and told me that he would miss me. he hugged me, and kissed me, wiped ( Read more... )

so being 18 is acutally okay when you know the band lol. i went with them to raxx and they snuck me in the back [shhhhhh]. im so glad that they did tho because it was such an awesome show and night all together. i saw a lot of people that i havent seen since high school [that made me feel really old to say lol] so it was neat.
wheels and the ( Read more... )

i hate being 18. acutally wait... no i hate have a birthday in november. last night me, dan, andrew, kurtis, and ian all went to go see petes band play [keep in mind im the only 18 year old and the only one with a shitty fake id]. so kurtis goes in, then andrew, then ian... and then the guy checks my id and says he wants me to sign a piece of paper ( Read more... )

it almost feels as though i am being suffocated by all the things running through my head. they take over my entire body and make it hard to breathe and hard to swallow. out of every tear that i have ever cried in my life, not a single one has felt this way before. everytime i think about him leaving... about me leaving... about us, i just panic, ( Read more... )

i dont know why i do this to myself. i say that i'll wait for him to make the effort to see me but then i insist on phoning and putting myself out there, only to be shut down. then i end up all sad but never tell him. hes going away in 7 days... one week. and then thats it. hes gone for a month, then im moving away to school. you would think that ( Read more... )

i went to write my baretending exam today and i passed. oddly enough, i didnt get anything wrong. so yay... i can be a real bartender now.
xo;