Did I murder my own creativity?

[polaris93]

For a long time I was continually harassed and pestered by memories of all the people who bullied me when I was in school. The merories would not leave me alone, and brought back all the pain I'd suffered back then. Finally, I was so furious and frustrated with it that I imagined myself as a small child, maybe 6-7 years old, then imagined beating

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[expanding_x_man]

That doesn't strike me as being a connection. I mean, the fantasy, while obviously not one you would ever have enacted or wanted to REALLY enact - is one of defending your self, and so -- it is positive.

Maybe you were defending your creativity from attack. I mean, you could see it that way too.

[polaris93]

That's true. It's also possible that one of the medications I'm taking is responsible for my inability to write. Or that my laptop's keyboard is cramping my style -- for real. I just don't know. I hope that writing it out on LJ will help break up whatever is causing the problem. Crossing my fingers and praying you're right.