happiness is:
(a warm gun.)

happiness:

is.

is?

is what?

i had a crisis yesterday night. i could sleep for a very long time, and my mind kept wandering to the next day, school, and i really did not want to go back. me, with my fucking two APs, and it felt like the end of the world. then i talked to alex, who had 4. i really don't know how people handle that. that's crazy. but i stumbled through the day, ( Read more... )

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summer's almost over, i'm not sure what i should look forward to, i am sick of having to deal with a spoiled little sister and sick of psychotic parents, and i don't know how to deal with anything else, and it's times like these that make me wonder why the fuck i even bother existing.

yesterday had some downs (how can i put it, um, bluntly? ahahaha, yes, some of us will get that), some ups. saw someone i didn't want to see. he had a nice house, though. went to amoeba. got ( Read more... )

"i don't like nuts... in some forms."
"ahahah.."
"i didn't think you were gonna pick up on that."
"i so knew it was coming."
"well, it could have meant 'i like hazelnuts but i don't like peanuts..' "
"peanuts...penis! hah!"

i did a massive room-cleaning yesterday. i threw many things out, dumped many things in the garage, and spread everything else around my room. i now have my earrings in altoids boxes and a rosary hanging from my desk lamp. i've never used the rosary once since i got it. i did go to a rosary procession in poland, though. it was actually very pretty ( Read more... )

fuck, i can't believe i finally have this song!! (thanks alan!). reminds me of plaid, makes me nostalgic.

"the pope. he goes under the 'automobile' category, right?"

life is a little strange right now ( Read more... )

i..

yeah. even that one word, even that sometimes feels like a lie.