DisAppearing  Act

Disappearing Act

Found and Lost.
Lost and Found.

And
"A picture is worth a thousand words"
makes more sense to me now.

So, I had another Doctor's appointment and they need me to get fucking vaginally probed to see if I have ovarian cysts which is shitty I'm hoping its nothing which it probably will be,
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Im starting to find out...I may be a sado-masochist..
And I havent gotten any in a long ass time...wtf?

I feel like I need to control everything..
People especially...
I blow smoke in peoples faces.
I boss people around...
I realize when Im not full of someone else I'm full of myself...
I've definitely finished this process that has brought me to ( Read more... )

xxxxxxx: hows life?
Tomi Casaundra: cold
xxxxxxx:physically? or emotionally?
Tomi Casaundra:  all of it
Tomi Casaundra:  becoming more intriguing though
Tomi Casaundra:  as before
xxxxxxx: washa mean?
Tomi Casaundra:  hah
Tomi Casaundra:  it's just
xxxxxxx: lol
Tomi Casaundra:  I'm so much happier being a cold person
Tomi Casaundra:  if that makes sense
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<3

Everyone should pitch in and buy me this.

http://www.shayesaintjohn.com/DVD-ORDER-PAGE.html

Okay! HAHAHA  
Im obsessed....

No one can accommodate this emptiness.
This is probably the most profound beautiful sadness Ive felt and Im now understanding why I thrived upon it before.

Someone share it with me please..

My days have just gradually become so much.... what s the word... bloodier.

I feel like I'm spreading disease.

No one will understand this.

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If this were a painting
Bleeding together
In some form would be acceptable
And defining.

I feel obsolete
Because I know at one point
My breath will be only mine
And yours to you.

I condense my thoughts
In two words
"Don't leave."
But again this routine.
Has run me dry.

With time answers always come.

Time and plenty of cigarettes.

I shot for GG;'s yesterday and the day before, fun fun..

I have stories to tell.

I have cigarettes to smoke.

Alright!

AIM: Tomi Casaundra

Fuck you.

• .001...I have a ridiculous yeast infection that REFUSES to go away... It feels like my vagina has been possessed

• .002...>.< Someone kill me...

• .003...On a lighter note...Aaron comes....Saturday...

• .004...I'm very excited... Because I kind of love him..If that makes any sense..

• .005...Not so excited I have a raging-yeast-beast living in my vagina but ( Read more... )