pile of good things and a pile of bad things

[pocky_slash]

Hello, internet. This morning I woke up with ridiculous pain in my jaw and without the ability to, you know, speak. I e-mailed into work and took a handful of valium and I can now open my mouth and drink and suck on squishy things, so that's progress.

Things here continue apace. I spent the weekend alone being crazy. I'm almost caught up on Being

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[taffimai]

I love Rose too. And Dan. And Jon and Amy. I'll let you slide on the whole Barrowman thing.

[dremiel]

Hugs to you, Sweetie.

Randomly, The Boy is having a bit of a shit week: hormones, headaches, homework...the normal stuff when you are 14...but last night he hugged me good night and said, "Pile of bad thing; pile of good things- thanks for making the good pile bigger" and you know, my heart melted and I eased off on my desire to turf him out for adoption (it was only about an hour).

THANK YOU for making my pile of good thing bigger and I hope you are feeling more steady very soon!

All the ♥

[pocky_slash]

♥ ♥ ♥ to you and Sam.

I love that episode so much and I really feel like one of the things that's so great about it is that it articulates the pile of good things in a way I've never been able to. When I would have episodes and explain to people (usually either online, where I didn't have to see them face to face, or haltingly and awkwardly in person) that I was having an episode, I then felt like I had to justify any good times I had during that period. Like, if I was sad, I had to be sad all the time. But I'm almost never sad all the time. Even at the worst, usually someone can get a laugh out of me or fandom can get a squee out of me. And that metaphor is just... perfect for explaining that to people. That it all depends on which pile is bigger at the moment. The pile of bad things don't NEGATE the pile of good things or vice versa, but sometimes one is bigger than the other and... yeah.

Um, anyway. Thanks. ♥

[dremiel]

And even if the good pile is feeling small IT IS STILL THERE! ALWAYS THERE, THANK GOD!

Yeah, I really don't talk about being BP very much (and Cyclothymia is so much milder and generally easier to manage than full bore BP) because it's HARD to talk about in any meaningful way. You either understand or you really don't. I love that episode for letting Vincent be JOYFUL w/o curing him, w/o negating the bad. And, of course, for avoiding the crazy=creative trope.

I'm so sorry you are having such a crap start to 2011. It'll swing back.

In the meantime know that you inspire SO MUCH LOVE AND JOY! SO MUCH!

[metonymy]

First I went :D OLIVIA!

Then I went :( WHY DOES SHE THINK MY SHIRT IS UGLY

And then I went AHAHAHAHA OH DRUNKEN CUMMERBUND, SHINE ON YOU SURLY DIAMOND.

<33333333333

[bessiemaemucho]

Oh dear. I hope your jaw is back at 100% capacity soon! ♥