entry thirty one: one step forward, about six thousand back.

[pleasesmirk]

You know, I'm led to believe that the Barge is for learning something (not, surprisingly, the mindless suffering we go through on a more than regular basis). So, I thought you all might like to know. I've learnt something.

Sadists gloat. I'm better than them. I'm not nearly the terrible man I was nearly convinced I was (believe it or not, Sirrus

Comments

[rani_ushas]

I have always argued that mere sadism is inefficient. Well said.

[The strike is unreadable, and so are a few other fitful starts at writing something. Yes, the Rani's having deja vu.]

[pleasesmirk]

And you were correct to do so. There's no point in it - in fact, it ruins your ability to get an effective result.

[rani_ushas]

Precisely. It is also ridiculously self-indulgent.

[pleasesmirk]

Of course. You've lost sight of a sensible aim before you've even started, and focused on your own... enjoyment of the situation.

You are a very sensible woman, Rani.

[Private]

[born_in_blood]

I don't understand how sadists can even develop an affinity for gloating.

[Private]

[pleasesmirk]

It's quite simple. It's a matter of demonstrating the pain they can inflict. I would do it for causing fear, perhaps, in order to get control, but no other reason. They do it to revel in the reaction of other people. They enjoy being reviled and in shocking people. For its own sake.

Having blood on your hands is not enough. They want to shove it in other people's faces and watch them suffer too.

[Private]

[born_in_blood]

People are so hostile.

[Private]

[pleasesmirk]

Criminal sorts are. They need to be under more control than this.

[cautionarystory]

Do they?

[pleasesmirk]

It's a tendancy I've noticed of late.

[Security]

[nomoreleftshoe]

I'll make sure to keep an eye out when I'm up there on patrol. Thanks for the tip, man.

[Security]

[pleasesmirk]

Not a problem. I wouldn't want someone doing something so pointless and foolish.

Re: [Security]

[nomoreleftshoe]

I'm assuming it's not any of us criminals?

[Security]

[pleasesmirk]

I never said you were one. I couldn't judge, I never got the chance to

As for the criminal elements? It could be some of them, I don't know. They shouldn't be allowed to do the foolish, cowardly thing and run away from their crimes.

Private- You have horrible timing, Swing!

[greatlightother]

Comrade O'Brien?

Because I believe that he did not mean it.

Private

[pleasesmirk]

And that means... you can just carry on like it didn't happen?

Because, and I mean no offence, I know the Doctor didn't mean it. I know he's sorry, but every time I try and talk to him, I just get angry and can't... deal.

...don't tell anyone I said that.

Private

[greatlightother]

I will tell no one.

But, it sounds as if you are thinking of the act, rather than the person. You have associated what happened with him, and you cannot do that. Associate instead the act with the motives behind it or, in that case, with the motives of the person he was during the flood.

Re: Private

[pleasesmirk]

no, that makes sense. When it's them, it's a different motive to me so differ... right.

Right. I see. That makes sense.

Question. Does he... does he frighten you, still? Even though you might know he won't do it again and all that. Does he?