I apologize for my rambling~

[red_planet31]

• What sort of profession in the wizarding world would you choose and why?
  Without a doubt, I would love to be an Unspeakable. Yes, not much is known about what they exactly DO at the Department of Mysteries but it is known that it involves trying to uncover the secrets of death, time, thought and love, etc. which intrigues and fascinates me. Death, time, thought and love are such an inherent part of our lives and yet still such a mystery to us all. To be able to have the chance to try and find out more about these things would be like a dream come true to me. Real reason, 3 words: BADASS JOB TITLE.
  
  
• You have to venture deep into the Forbidden Forest one night. Pick one Harry Potter character other than Hagrid and one object (muggle or magical), besides your wand, that you'd want with you.
  I think I'd pick Remus Lupin because I'd prefer someone who isn't going to panic in an emergency and wouldn't depend solely on me in case, for example, a giant spider decided it wants us for dinner. He's experienced and knows how to handle an emergency (For example, not losing his calm but giving chocolate to Harry after the Dementors caused him to faint). He's knowledgeable and a master duelist which would definitely help us if we're in danger. Plus, his calm personality would probably stop ME from panicking and I'm sure he'd be good company.
  
  I'd probably bring a Portkey that can teleport us back to a safe place. A lot of things can happen in a struggle like dropping or damaging your wands, so a Portkey would be good for a quick escape when the odds are against us.
  
  
• If you had the opportunity to live forever, but your family and friends did not, what would you choose? And if you did choose to live forever, what would you do with eternity?
  I'd be tempted to... but I probably won't. If I did choose to live forever, I'd spend eternity traveling the world, observing the progress of human civilization and who knows, maybe explore space and the universe. But the thought of having to live through all my family and friends’ death just saddens me. I know that if I could live forever, the novelty and loneliness of immortality would get to me sooner or later. Sure, it’d be fun and exciting at the beginning since I really would love to see what happens to Earth and the human race but… the loneliness would probably get to me. Sure, I can make new friends, but knowing that they’d die and I have to say goodbye and well, be left alone, would probably drive me mad with lonely resignation or make me develop a crazy superiority complex.
  
  
• If you could travel back in time to one point, when and where would you go? Why?
  I am sorely tempted to go back in time to stop myself from applying for an Engineering Scholarship because my studies are driving me mad now… but I won’t because I try not to regret my decisions and I believe that my experiences are what make me, well, me. So.. I’d travel back in time to when the Egyptian pyramids were first built because I’m such a history buff and I’m curious as to how they built it and calculated the measurements without any of the technology that we have today. Plus, as we all know, they are a wondrous sight in this day and age, but I heard that they were even more breathtaking in the past, so I’d like to see that view. Before the pyramids were ravaged by time and humans.
  
  
• What HP character do you identify with most and why?
  I think I'd identify most with Remus Lupin. The thing is that I can understand his feeling of wanting to be accepted by his friends. He regrets never having the courage to tell his friends that they were out of order and I can relate to this. When I was younger I was a class monitor and when the teacher was absent, I'd have to control the class and report those who are noisy(believe me, my classmates can be really noisy). Well, my friends were usually well-behaved but sometimes they can be as noisy as the other group of unruly students in my class. I tend to give a warning first but if they ignore it, well, then I'd have to report them. I knew that was the right thing to do. However, I admit that compared to the group of unruly boys(the 'troublemakers' of the class), I was more lenient with my friends. Maybe it doesn't matter now, but I do regret it because I knew I shouldn’t have done that. So, yes, I can relate to Lupin's regret and his insecurities and his wanting to be liked. Also, his personality is kind of like mine. We’re both laid-back, cautious, don’t like conflict and logical.
  
  
• What would you see if you looked into the Mirror of Erised?
  Please excuse my shallowness, but…. I think I’d see myself with a gorgeous spouse who understands me, beautiful children, my family safe and sound, a successful career and a business empire lead by me and my descendants for generations to come. Basically, I want it all. Love, security, fame & fortune.
  
  
• Do you believe that moral actions should be judged by the intentions behind them, or by the consequences they create?
  Both probably. I don't think that we can judge someone just based on their intentions or the consequences of their actions. To me, a good intention does not justify an action that causes more harm than good. Like that quote by Karl Marx(EDITED: Oops, apparently not by Karl Marx. Thanks for the info~), "The road to hell is paved with good intentions." However, an action taken with the worst of intentions but with good consequences can't also be judged as morally good. But it also can't be judged as morally BAD in my opinion. The problem with morally judging something is that each person's moral standards are different. Which would lead to a whole other argument about whether we have the right to actually morally judge a person. Haha. Well, if we must, then I think we'd need to judge based on both their intentions and consequences(and possibly sanity) of their actions.
  
  
• What was your ideal job as a kid? Has that changed? What is your ideal job now?
  Honestly, and really, I'm not pushing or anything, when I was about 6 or 7, I wanted to take over the world. I remember telling my father that and him talking to me in a patronizing tone about what I said. Well, obviously how else are you going to talk to a kid with an affinity for world domination, but I was still a bit miffed at my dad that time. XD Anyway, when I was slightly older I wanted to be a teacher(I thought they had lots of holidays...) or a manager or CEO of a company. I believe my young mind's logic was we work to get money. So I wanted a job that could give me a lot of money. Haha. Well, I do still want that now but my ideal job would probably be something to do with music or show business or writing or.. or... OK, I'm actually not sure what my ideal job would be..
  
  
• If you were able to invent one spell, potion, or charm, what would it do, what would you use it for or how would you use it, and what would you call it?
  A potion that when taken enables one's mind and body to function properly even without sleep. I'd need it to deal with my exams or when trying to finish my assignments. The thing is that I tend to do things last minute, so I'd spend the whole night before deadline trying to finish my work or pulling an all-nighter to study for my exams. I usually fall asleep halfway and if I do manage to not fall asleep, my mind would still be a little fuzzy the next day from lack of sleep. The proper thing to do would probably be to stop procastinating but habits die hard and apparently it'd be easier to invent a potion XD. Other than using it for myself, I could totally sell it to fellow procastinators and make a lot of money. I'm not sure what I'd call it though. How about the Procastinator's Potion? Or Need No Sleep Nectar? Energizer Elixir? Haha.
  
  
• If you were to face a boggart, what would it turn into? And what does it turn into when you throw the counter-spell, Riddikulus?
  I’m actually terrified of heights but I’m not sure how the boggart would turn into that… so I think the boggart might turn into me, horribly disfigured or handicapped. I dread the thought of me(or my loved ones actually) losing an arm or a leg or both or being blinded or deafened. It’s something that scares me because I really can’t imagine not being able to do the things I can do now. Imagine not being able to walk, or to just write, or not being able to read a book or watch TV properly. I guess when I throw the counter-spell, the boggart would turn into me, a normal me with no handicaps, saying “You are SO overreacting.” XP
  
  
• What do you look for in a friend?
  Well, I actually don't have a set of requirements or anything for a friend. I usually don't make friends with the intention of making friends, it's just one minute we're acquaintances, next thing you know, we're friends. My friendships tend to start that way. Well, what I'd like in a friend is open mindedness (This is important to me because I LOATHE prejudice and racism and just plain selfish, narrow-minded behaviour), a sense of humour(since I like telling jokes). When I'm with my friends, I want to just relax and hang out, so a friend who isn't emotional and wouldn't bring the mood down would be nice. However, even if a person has those traits, if they want to be friends I'd probably still be friends with them because, well, no one's perfect.
  
  
• What trait most annoys you about other people?
  Close-mindedness annoys me above all others. This includes prejudice, racism, apathy, etc. I'm really really really annoyed by people who thinks that their way is the only right way without considering that maybe they could be *le sarcastic gasp* wrong. I have many friends from many different racial/religious/cultural background. Unfortunately some of those friends, themselves, don't have a variety of friends so sometimes they make prejudiced comments, which annoys me. And the fact that they don't realize their comments are prejudiced, annoys me even more. If you don't like someone because of their personality, then I don't have a problem with that, to each their own and all that, but if you don't like someone just because of their race or religion or sexual orientation without even considering getting to know them as a person, well that just ticks me off.
  
  
• What do you think are your top five abilities or qualities?
  
  Open minded. Like I said before, I have many friends from many different racial/religious/cultural backgrounds. I would not reject someone just because of their race or religion or sexual orientation or anything like that. (Exception being you’re a psycho mass murderer, have a superiority complex, etc.. and especially if you don’t like Star Wars Shame on you! XDXD). Haha. Anyway, I am against racism and prejudice of any kind. If I’ve made a decision, and someone thinks I’m wrong, I wouldn’t be all defensive, I’d listen to the reasons and then make up my mind. I’m a really tolerant person. I think they’d be a lot less conflict if people would just focus on the similarities between us all and embrace the differences as something that makes us all unique. Well, one time one of my friends admired how I can make friends with just about anyone and I guess I can because I’m open minded and don’t judge.
  
  Kind . I always find it strange to explain WHY I’m kind because, seriously, does anybody actually say “I am kind.” ;P but apparently I am, according to my friends, and I guess they should know. Umm… well, it’s true that I’m caring and have my random moments of generosity. I find it very difficult to refuse someone who asks me for help. And I enjoy helping people because, well, this world isn’t exactly an easy place to live in, so a little kindness would probably help in making it a better place (Idealistic? ME? Haha.) Plus, there’re enough selfish, mean people in the world already. Anyway, I’m friendly and easygoing and always greeting people with a smile. And yes, I admit that I’m caring, especially about the poor, handicapped, endangered animals, the environment, etc. Someday, if I’m rich or have enough time, I know that I’d be active in charity work(not because it’d make me look good but because I do genuinely care…… OMG HOW CORNY CAN I GET?!! ) And I’m caring towards my friends and family too, of course. >_< And I’m usually nice.
  
  Honest. Most of the times. Haha. I’m pretty genuine and if I say something, I mean it. I don’t lie so much because keeping track of the fake details of my lies is so bothersome and I’d probably fail at it. Which will make people question me. Which would lead to MORE lies that I can’t keep track off. Next thing I know, it’d be like tower of cards and everything would just collapse and it’d be a disaster. Anyway, I do occasionally tell white lies but my first instinct is usually to tell the truth. Like this one time where my friend went “You were late again this morning for class! Don’t tell me you overslept?!”, at which my brain would be making up excuses but my mouth would have already gone off and said “Yes, yes I did.” >_< My mind would probably be facepalming while I just look innocently and defiantly at my friend daring her to accuse me some more. Another hilarious proof of my honesty was when I told my guy friend that his skin colour was dark (Being dark isn’t a negative thing for a guy to me. I didn’t know he was sensitive about that!) and he went all “You’re too honest. Why can’t you just say I’m less fair?” at which point I tried to stop myself from laughing. So, anyway, maybe I’m a little too straightforward XP.
  
  Strong minded. It’s true that I can be very indecisive, but once I make up mind, I tend to stick to it (unless you give me a good reason, of course). I have very strong opinions about my principles and although I’m quite flexible(like I said before, I am quite open minded), it’d be nearly impossible to convince me to change them. For example, a friend (and really, he is nice and respectful) once told me that he’d prefer sons because daughters are harder to look after. Why? Apparently because girls are easily influenced and would probably choose their boyfriends over their family. I was like O_o. This isn’t the first time he’s made a comment about girls being emotional and easily influenced and, well, weak (and the thing that annoyed was that my other guy friends at that time agreed with what he said too) but this comment was the first comment I actually told him outright that what he’s saying is disrespectful to women and his future daughters because he’s just assuming things(I know how to pick my battles, I don’t randomly go all gung ho just because he thinks differently from me). I’m actually not that sure that this is an example of me being strong minded :P… But what I’m trying to say is that, I have strong principles and I stand up for them.
  
  Sense of humour and wit. I like to make jokes and give witty comments. I appreciate sarcasm and my humour is more of a sarcastic kind of humour. Not many of my friends get that so when I met a friend of mine who does, we’d try to outdo each other’s sarcasm (all in good fun of course). I like to make people laugh and be entertaining so a lot of what I say is meant to be funny or dramatic dramatically funny. I don’t know whether they’re actually funny or not since I am a rather quirky person and I may have a quirky sense of humour.
  
  
• What do you think are your top five weaknesses or worst qualities?
  Laziness I am very lazy and I procrastinate far too much. My room’s a mess because I only clean it once in a blue moon while. I prefer doing things the easy way although that doesn’t mean that I’m against hard work. Basically, I procrastinate far too much and I always do things last minute. I guess the only time you can call me not lazy is when I’m rushing to finish my work.
  
  Proud. I am proud but not in a boastful kind of way although sometimes I may come off show-offy. I’m proud in the way that I find it very difficult to ask for help even though I need help because I don’t want to look weak in front of others. I don’t like people knowing that I’m suffering or struggling with something (that most people do effortlessly) because I hate being pitied. I kinda have a “If you have tried and failed, erase all evidence that you’ve tried” thinking. Generally, I do not think that people asking for help are weak, but I still can’t do it without much effort. Probably because I don’t like being patronized, being made fun of(strange thing is sometimes I don’t mind and yet sometimes I really do mind), and, like I said before, being pitied. I’m fine admitting I need help if someone actually asks me, but I can’t make the first move. When me and my friends went snowboarding, I failed horribly at it because I couldn’t stand up(darn my lack of balance and strong muscles) but my friends were all better off than me. And the thing is that, they all decided to wait for me instead of going off to have fun which I guess, is nice of them but torture for me because I hate feeling like a burden and I hate feeling that they pitied me.
  
  Lack of focus (or something like that). I can never finish something I’ve started. I’ve dabbled in fic writing, icon making, stamping comms, forums, roleplaying, guitar playing, . etc. but I rarely immerse myself fully. Or it’s more like this, I’d be seriously crazy about something one moment and really focus everything on it, and in a few days I’d be crazy about something else. Then, well, I go through some more new obsessions, and then suddenly, I might start obsessing about the thing I was obsessed with before. I like to dabble in a lot of things but rarely have the focus to umm… make the skill my own. Like they say “Jack of all trades, king of none.” Or I guess you can say that I don’t like limiting myself to one thing.
  
  Sensitive. People usually don’t realize this(or maybe they do) but I’m quite sensitive meaning that my feelings can be hurt easily. I rarely show it though and most people don’t realize it because I’m always cheerful and smiling. The thing is that I am easily hurt by criticism especially about my weight or my shortcomings. This could also be because I want people to like me and criticism could feel like rejection. I can be quite negative when my parents offer me criticism because I’d be thinking “OMG I’ve been a good, obedient daughter, why is that not good enough??!!!!”(Of course, later on when I’ve cooled down, I’d come to the conclusion that I was overreacting).
  
  Self-absorped. I’m not always like this but sometimes I can be very self-absorped or only concerned with things that affect me personally. Like what I said before about my parents criticizing me (which they usually do because they care and all that) and somehow I manage to make it all about them pressuring me and accusing me. Sigh… Most of the time I can go on and on about myself as you can obviously see in this application. I am horrible at keeping in contact with old school friends after we graduated high school because we’ve all went our separate ways. I do still keep in contact but only occasionally. I am horrible at keeping track of my friends’ birthdays unless they’re my really close friends or someone I see a lot. When I call my family, I usually talk about ME ME ME and I get annoyed when they’re not listening properly. Le sigh…
  
  
• Define in your own words the following key traits:
  
  • Courage: Courage isn't about not fearing anything, but daring to face your fears even when the odds are against you. It takes courage to do the right thing. It takes courage to go against convention and stand up for what you believe in. It takes courage to sacrifice yourself for the greater good(and this doesn't necessarily mean sacrificing your life).
    
  • Loyalty: Loyalty is being devoted to a person or cause and never abandoning them. Loyalty is believing in a person and standing by his/her side through not only the good times, but the bad times too.
    
  • Intelligence: Intelligence is one's mental ability to think, analyze and solve a problem quickly and rationally. Intelligence is also the ability to understand, learn and absorb knowledge, to comprehend complex ideas, to reason and plan, and learn from experience.
    
  • Ambition: Ambition is the desire or determination to be successful, rich, powerful, etc. Ambition is knowing what you want and willing to do all you can to achieve it.
    
  
  
• Name: Marissa
  
• Age: 21
  
• Where did you find out about us? I was looking for sorting communities.
  
• Do you plan on being active in the communities once you are sorted? Yes.