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pixiebelle

Second Chance Idol - Hungry

Feb 10, 2020 19:31

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lj idol season 11, second chance idol, lj idol, non-fiction

Comments 13

gingergirlslove February 11 2020, 05:36:38 UTC

TRAGIC! If that was a true story, I hope life is better now. Well written.

pixiebelle February 11 2020, 06:06:28 UTC

Thank you. And yes, things are much better now. I’m getting married in March to someone with a more evenly matched libido, thankfully 😅

gingergirlslove February 12 2020, 06:21:41 UTC

Awesome! Congratulations!

ragnarok_08 February 11 2020, 07:33:08 UTC

Very well written!!

d0gs February 11 2020, 18:38:13 UTC

This was really well written and really described that feeling of loneliness when there is a disconnect in wavelengths :(

karmasoup February 12 2020, 04:57:41 UTC

I wonder if he was undiagnosed asexual, and just made a pretense of sexual interest online to feign what he imagined others might perceive as his concept "normal," but had no need to keep up the charade with you. Perhaps he hadn't even admitted it himself. But there were definite indications of other underlying issues, too, it seems bordering on abuse, unless there's more between the lines not being said here, and there was no "bordering" about it. Either way, good for you for getting yourself out of that situation and into a better life.

pixiebelle February 12 2020, 05:01:45 UTC

I’ve thought about a sexuality too, but he continued to deny it. It’s definitely complicated, and there’s no way I could go into all of it here. But there were other issues and I’ve analyzed the situation to death over the years, so I have theories. But ultimately, it just wasn’t a healthy relationship. We definitely weren’t compatible, and I don’t think he was attracted to me.

I’ve moved on, found someone who’s more aligned with me sexually and doesn’t leave me doubting his feelings for me. But it definitely did some damage to me too.

karmasoup February 12 2020, 05:07:17 UTC

No one ever escapes failed relationships without damage... some leave more than others. The best we can hope for is to learn and grow from the experience, carry the good forward, leave the bad behind, and try not to repeat the same mistakes in the next one. It seems you're on the path that's right for you now.

ellison February 13 2020, 02:31:05 UTC

Oh what a sad situation. I'm so sorry you endured such heartache and rejection, and gaslighting too. The "I do all the work!" when doing none of the work, just... ugh.

I'm SO glad you're in such a better relationship now!!

Your writing is so interesting and captivating, and really draws me in. I almost felt like I was in a novel and wanted it to just keep going. Very wonderfully done!