I spun some wicked fire last night.
I've almost lost 'the fear'.
I want to grab life by the edges and run with it.
No more fear.

i'm casting my gaze outside to the dusky clear fall evening sky and pretending with all my resolve that the ticon playing out of my computer speakers actually emanates from high powered amplifiers reverberating through the forest floor. i think i miss the summer more than ever just for the lack of outdoor gatherings and forest dancing that managed ( Read more... )

the more time i spend on this planet, the more it seems apparent that there is some sort of massive, [paradoxically]deterministic, unfathomable strange attractor force-line flowing through all of existence, and we little pieces of consciousness are just acting as its conduits, working its magic, enacting its will ( Read more... )

actually, oddly enough, nestled in a pocket of all this rampant confusion there be some auspice of bizarre clarity slowly dissolving the surrounding.
it makes no sense and yet it makes perfect sense.....

I really ought to dance with more gratitude.

i wish i could elucidate this track into some sort of semi-poetic string of syllablic imagery and cactus landscaping, but i think i'm fantasizing too much about the sandy desert and the western aesthetic and not enough about the here and now and the moment that tethers itself backwards and forwards to the evanescent 'past' and 'future' (really, it' ( Read more... )

the perceptual passage of time eludes me right now, as days run on to eons and moments last eternities, and at the same time it all passes so quickly.
i'm really trying to savour the moment, because it's so beautiful and before long eons have passed and it's all a once-was.
constantly moving.
i'm really amazed.

wanting to ask you questions about the meaning of dreams and feelings. those sorts of actions can get a person into a lot of trouble, you know, but here i am. i think perhaps i'm just projecting, looking outwards when i should be looking in.

i can be resolute in my anxious states ( Read more... )

i can wait forever for confirmation or i can make vain attempts to force a reality into existence that may or may not be in alignment with anything even vaguely reminiscent of the vector-will of the universe (it requires so much energy, like pushing two coulombs of positive charge towards close proximity of one another). all the same, you've got to ( Read more... )

i don't know that i can really do justice in linguistic form to the exponential growth that's been taking place in me lately ( Read more... )