that which does not make sense at all

[phoenix_ice]

I went out drinking with Tony last Sunday night for his farewell party. We met first at around 9:30pm and shared 5 bottles of beer and tons of food while waiting for our other co-workers who were supposed to close the restaurant. At around 12mn, Kuya Ramil, Stephen, and Roselyn came and we continued our round of drinks and exchange of chitchats.

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[tomatofish]

oh my god i hate you. i feel so betrayed! uminom ka ng beer???

hahahaha. no, seriously. in love? you've got to tell me about this.

[phoenix_ice]

I think it's already late to say I was actually in love. I mean, he's gone and there's no more chance to pursue anything.

The beer, on the other hand... Sigh... I was left with no other choice. The only option I had was the brand of beer I was getting. Fortunately enough, the beer I had last Sunday was so much better than our San Mig. It was Molson Canadian beer and it was lighter than what we have back home. Doesn't have much of a piss-like taste and smell.

[tomatofish]

this sounds weird but how do you say you're in love? im seriously asking here.

[phoenix_ice]

Sa tingin ko may varying degrees of love eh. May mas serious sa infatuation pero hindi ka pa handang pakasalan, may taong pwede mo nang pakasalan. Relative siguro ang perception of love sa age ng tao.

Ewan, ngayong iniisip ko kung ano ang isasagot ko, pati ako nalalabuan. Pero siguro malalaman mo kung mahal mo talaga ang isang tao kung handa kang i-risk ang feelings mo para sa kanya.

[seiichiyamagai]

*hugs*
Honey, what are you trying to say?
Things like that happen.
When I realized that I really liked someone, not only did I also realize that we're never going to be possible, but she's also leaving as well.
It's not stupidity or idiocy, you can't control whatever your heart decides to feel at the moment.
What you can do is that be thankful you had at least met him and spent time with him. Even though nothing happened between the two of you, it was at least good times with him around.
There was nothing to lose.

[phoenix_ice]

It's just that I'm so sick of feeling this way. If it's going to end up like this, it's best not to feel anything for him from the start. It would save us both the time and spare us the pain that comes with the separation.

Your case, on the other hand, is different. The news of her leaving was a shock to you. You never had an idea that she will be leaving. From the start I was aware that his stay here was temporary. I should've controlled myself more.

But then again, I might be bitter.. Haha!

[seiichiyamagai]

Bitter could be it.
Goddess, I think even vanilla tasted bitter to me when I found that she was leaving.

That's okay, you can keep in your heart, and then in the future, you can tell your great grand children about this man that just waltzed into your life for a certain amount of time and how much those days still serve as memory purposes. And how much heartache it was when he had to leave, ne!

Every meeting will have its partings... *sigh* Even though this pain is very much vivid... at least you've had it. Don't regret feeling that way. And believe that the next one will be better!

Oh, BTW, I am officially a Conqueror! XD