just keep swimming

[phinnia]

Still more depressed/maudlin than baseline. Stupid Paxil. down to 5mg daily; in two weeks it'll be 5mg/every other day, and then it'll be GONE FROM MY LIFE and I should really have a party

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[frankincensy]

I'm so sorry you had such a bad experience with Paxil. I'm 100% with you on better living through chemistry, though... yet I can understand the feeling of not wanting to "rely" on drugs, as if that was a sign of weakness. It isn't at all, although I still struggle with thinking that way occasionally (regarding myself, not others). I've been pretty lucky with side effects on the whole, although I'm currently coming off a pair of meds (fluvoxamine and lamotrigine) that are being a little more stubborn in terms of side effects and withdrawal. I just realised the other day "I never used to be this apathetic, did I?" and that cemented my desire to get them out of my system.

Still, the first antidepressant I ever went on didn't do anything in itself, but the relief I got from just knowing I was on something that might help was a lifesaver. That's partly why I'd never dissuade someone from STARTING a medication.

/self-centred ramble

Anyway, I hope you feel better soon, in all respects.

[boozymatic]

Oh, girl. Paxil was one of the worst drugs to get off of ever, for me. Nasty stuff. The tapering off part was sheer hell.

Hang in there! *hugs*

[presocratic]

*Shivers* This post reminded me of an experience I had trying to wean myself from a sleeping med that was supposedly not addictive. Well, it might not have been "addictive," but I sure as hell became dependent on it. Without the med, I couldn't sleep AT ALL.

Today, although I'm still a terrible insomniac, I avoid prescription sleeping medications. Not the right choice, I know, but the experience is still too fresh.