i'm so discontent when thinking about you that then i can't think about or do anything else. that's not healthy. that sucks.

Silly Ones
Waiting RoomMy baby may be born today ( Read more... )

i have a bunch of stuff i have to write for my english final portfolio and i can't see to get any of it done. never should've taken a creative writing class. i thought it would be fun, but it really isn't. i don't like writing any more. i don't really have any good stories in me, and i can't finish anything i am able to start. i don't know ( Read more... )

i'm learning in a new and deeper way today how what i choose to think about is going to dictate what my mind focuses on. it is very interesting. whether it's disease, anxieties, shitty circumstances, my sin, whatever, i tend to view everything in my life in a negative light. i allow my mind to drift to and dwell on negative and depressing things ( Read more... )

i wish people would take me seriously when i try to tell them my biggest fears and anxieties. they'd rather laugh in my face or shake their heads than try to help me do the things i need to do. i wish people would believe me when i tell them there is something seriously wrong with me. they just think i'm silly. i'm not silly, i'm crazy. i'm ( Read more... )

i'm bored but i don't feel like doing anything. i'm sure there are plenty of things i could be doing...like working on my home church teaching. but i really just don't want to. i'd rather just sit and stare at the wall. this is pretty lame.

i've gotten myself into some serious financial trouble and i don't know what to do. i feel like i'm running out of things to sell. i wish i wouldn't do this to myself. it makes it hard to concentrate on the things right in front of me. i have a lot of homework and other things i should be doing today. i wish i would just get a better job, but ( Read more... )

today has been better.

still waiting to find out.

okay.

if it came true, that would be a reason to keep my sanity ( Read more... )

I'm beginning to like you ( Read more... )