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[perfectdays]

Today was just another chapter in the long ongoing saga of medical tests to try and determine what the fuck is wrong with my body.

I'm not holding out any hope. At this point I've just about given up. Nobody knows. Whatever. I'll either soldier on or die trying.

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[drazzi]

Hey, from the age of 8 until the age of 16 I had 'mystery illness' that made all tests come back clear and healthy, but had me stuck in bed every other fortnight exhausted. Then finally I got diagnosed, but not before my mum had to suggest what was wrong and not before I thought I had a friggin tumour or something :/

So I guess what I'm saying is, you sometimes have to wait a long ass time. Sometimes you have to pay a lot of money too. But if you hold out and push and try every avenue, eventually they will find out. They will.

♥

[perfectdays]

I'm just frustrated. Casting my mind back now, I suddenly realise it's been two whole years since this stupid thing got started, though I didn't recognise it as such then.

CFS would piss me off, too, because there's both no real test for it and no real cure. For me, that would be the absolute worst-case scenario, after hearing all the shit you've had to deal with. Whatever. I can still function in every day life when I'm not getting sick every second month. So I guess that's what I'll carry on doing.

[drazzi]

I know, it can get so frustrating when tests come back all the time with "Nope." ♥ But it's okay! I'll be positive for you when you get down bb <3 They will find out and you'll get the help you need!

It's horrible when you look back and go ".. fuck this has been going on for years" aint it? :/ But hey, on the plus side you're active enough to be able to rule out CFS?

[perfectdays]

Yeah, I'm pretty active. I mean, I have holiday stints where I do like, fuck all, but during term time I'm able to bike or walk back and forth between school without much of a problem. I just ... get sick ... all the time. Like, ALL the time. It's especially worrying because up until a couple of years ago, I had like, the world's strongest immune system. Even if I got the flu, I would get better in one or two days tops. And I rarely ever got sick. Now if someone SNEEZES on the same train as me, I get sick. Or if I stay up too late one night, I've got a cold the next day. And it takes me two to three weeks to throw off a sore throat. And a month to heal a papercut. I just. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh.

[maggiebloome]

:(

[apology]

DON'T DIE D8

[haeralis]

:( ILU