some festivids recs (and a tentative plan for more frequent posting)

[pellucid]

My life is dominated right now by how much seasonal affective disorder (SAD) suuuuuuucks. Yes, I have a SAD lamp and use it assiduously. Yes, I'm trying to get exercise and eat well and get reasonable amounts of natural sunlight. In the past these things have kept the edge off. Not this year. This weekend I slept for 12 hours each night and then

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[gabolange]

I haven't paid attention to festvids at all this year, but that vid for A League of Their Own just makes me happy. And makes me want to rewatch for what would almost certainly be the 101st time. At least. Easily. Because . . . top five movies of all time? Oh yes.

And yes, definitely post here about diet and exercise and getting the hell out of Dodge! Because, well. Yes. Hugs!

[pellucid]

It's a good one! You'd probably like that B5 one, too, if you didn't watch it. It's not brilliant, but it sort of hit the spot, especially on the John/Delenn front.

Diet: in the toilet today; exercise: about to happen; getting the hell out of Dodge: B. requested a meeting tomorrow about whether they're moving forward with hiring my replacement, which I guess makes it a real thing for sure. More on that in an email. And I'm generally feeling at least 70% human today, which is probably the best in the past week, so there's that. *hugs*

[gabolange]

I did watch the B5 vid and I . . . liked it? Oddly, I think I've gotten spoiled by watching only vids that chaila makes, because I'm all like, "BUT WHERE ARE THE THEMES?" and things like that, which surprised me a little bit. Um. But yes, John and Delenn are always happy making and now I want to rewatch ALL THE THINGS. Because when don't I? :)

Looking forward to your email! Have not been able to write because of cooking class, but I have Thoughts on cooking class, which I will share in an email as well. After I get some sleep and get through the workday tomorrow and all those things. But I am glad you are feeling more human, even though the weather is horrid and that there are things afoot regarding next steps. Talk soon!

[daybreak777]

Hope all of your efforts help you out. In the meantime you're . . . well-rested at least!

I do hope you get a break off the prairie soon and if posting here helps at all, well, we're still here!

[pellucid]

Except it's the kind of "well-rested" that makes one's colleague say, "you look kind of tired--busy weekend?" and then how do you respond to that??? Oh well.

I think part of what is bothering me at the moment is that I don't have my next trip planned, and I can't really move forward on planning one until I know a couple more pieces in the exit strategy. But without a trip to count down to, I really don't know how to live with today's lovely -37 windchill. :/

[fallingtowers]

This weekend I slept for 12 hours each night and then spent a large part of each day hiding under a blanket on the couch.

That's the form my depression takes most of the time, regardless of season, and I really sympathize with you. I hope you'll feel better soon when spring finally comes.

[pellucid]

*hugs* It really does suck so much! When I struggled with non-seasonal depression (and frankly, there's always a certain level of depression/anxiety that can spike from time to time, but I haven't hit clinical diagnostic levels in a decade, except for in winter), it was always an anxious, fretful, restless kind of thing. I would get in my car and drive for hours, and I'd have trouble sleeping, and I generally had really pronounced feelings of worthlessness. And this is so different, and yet so similar in its level of suckitude and its inhibiting of my general ability to function. Blah. Stupid brains! *giant hugs* We'll make it.

[de23]

I hope things get better for you soon. I know the weather here is nothing like what you have there, but even this little bit of gloom and cold gets me down. I can't imagine what it's like up there. And if you've tried everything and still need meds - no shame in that at all!

And please do post about exercise and all. I like reading/talking about all that stuff, and I always figure that's the beauty of writing - people can skip past the parts they don't care about.

[pellucid]

What it's like here today was blizzard and windchills of -37. I can't imagine that, and it's my life. Argh!

I think the other aspect of this, too, is feeling so isolated. I don't have close friends here (or at all, for at least an 8-hour drive), and the friends I do have all have young kids, so there is no calling someone up to say, "hey, I haven't left the house in 48 hours; let's go get dinner." So there's this whole aspect of having a support system to help me cope that I just really don't have, except at long distance. The weather or the isolation might be tolerable, but not both together. But it's temporary. I keep reminding myself of that.

And yes, you're someone I was thinking about with the exercise/food stuff, since I always enjoy reading your posts on the subject (even if I don't often comment). I will try to do more with that!

[de23]

I know the isolation thing is tough! It's so hard to get out of your own head when you don't see other people for days. And as nice as internet communication is, it's just not the same as f2f. Hang on - as you said, it won't last forever!