Fic: Five Things Gillian Foster Has Never Told Anyone (Lie to Me)

[pellucid]

This was inevitable, wasn't it? :) I've been trying to wrap my head around Gillian, and this seemed to be as good a way as any to do it. Unbetaed, mostly gen but including a bit of Gillian/Cal, assume spoilers for all aired episodes.

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[tv_fan_girl]

I love it. It really captures Gillian. Thanks for sharing....

[pellucid]

Thank you! I'm so pleased it worked for you.

[topaz_eyes]

Oh yes, these are *brilliant* insights into Gillian. I love how you look at all the major aspects of her life, how they feed into her psyche, the difference between surface!Gillian and real!Gillian.

It's interesting how you classify her addiction as alcoholism, that she chooses to see it that way--is there a measure of comfort in that for her?

She fell in love with him on a Tuesday afternoon in April, for no particular reason. Yes, this. It would make sense for it to sneak up on her because she seems so cautious.

Her smiles put people at ease. They put herself at ease. Fake it till you can't tell anymore what's faked and what's real.

This is vaguely terrifying because to me there's a real danger that she's going to lose herself without someone to ground her. Which I suppose is what Cal is for her. :-)

Again, brilliant. I wished I'd read this way back in the day when I was trying to figure her out.

[pellucid]

Thanks so much!

It's interesting that you pick up on the classification of the alcoholism--I vacillated on that. I'd originally written "addict," but then I thought that a) Gillian would need to be more precise than that, and b) she would also need to mentally separate her sugar-dependence from addiction proper, even though I think they'd be more closely related than she'd want to admit. But if she admits that sugar is part of the problem, then she's no longer in control of it, so she locates the problem with alcohol and just stays there. Or so went my line of thought, anyway--it's a way of calling it something she understands and feels like she's got under control.

there's a real danger that she's going to lose herself without someone to ground her. Which I suppose is what Cal is for herYes, I'm certainly enough of a shipper that I like the idea of Cal and Gillian grounding each other, of them being able to really know and be honest with each other because in some ways they can stand on equal footing only with one another, as far

[fleurlb]

Ah yeah, so much love. This is beautiful. Perfect. Seriously.

Sorry, I wish I could say something more meaningful, but I'm seriously flummoxed at how you managed to put so much heart and detail into this. Well done. :)

[pellucid]

Thank you! I'm so glad you liked it!

[etoilefilante]

I adore 3 and 5. I think she does both love and hate the pedestal that everybody has her up on. I particularly liked the lines dealing with Zoe; that was very in character. They are all very well-written. :)

[pellucid]

Thanks so much! And yeah, the relationship between Gillian and Zoe really fascinates me; I'd love to stick the two of them in a room together at some point and see what happens!

[sdwolfpup]

Wow, this is just fantastic. Perfectly, perfectly Gillian. I love it.

[pellucid]

Thanks, hon! I'm glad it worked for you.