On that craptastic feeling of failure...

[peanutmomma]

Lately it just seems like I can't do anything right. I'm losing my faith in my maternal instincts (that is, if I had them at all to begin with.) The boy is just hot and cold running crank lately. I don't know if it's teething or the stuffy nose he's had for the past few days, but it's been a fun couple of days at Hedges Court lately. I'm

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[peanutmomma]

Awwww - Tony!goodness. :) He's in town this weekend - the boys are racing at Kansas Speedway.

I think he's teething...I *hope* he's teething and just hasn't inherited his mother's grouchiness.

you're doing great, mom

[saundo]

he's just being the Little Man that we love and adore, at full speed.

Daddy was less than sympathetic this morning when he pulled the diaper pail down on top of himself, but it did result in cuddles for the peanut and then breakfast.

I wonder if he's truly teething, which is leading to the hot and cold peanut. He's definitely more cute and adorable after food, so maybe he's hungry?

[peanutmomma]

He had no interest in the bottle I made. So I did the other bad momma thing and put him down for a nap. Three seconds of crying and he was out like a light.

I just get nervous at this stage, I guess. Since he can't vocalize what's wrong or what he needs, I always worry that I'm guessing incorrectly. But as long as he's fed, dry, clean and away from the knife drawer, I guess I'm okay.

then i bet that's what it was

[saundo]

he was up at around 7, at brekfast at 9:15, and was probably ready for a nap after his travails with the pail, banging the block container lid on the wind, and attempting to pull daddy's chest hairs out in handfuls.

[peanutmomma]

Yeah... That chest hair pulling is rather tiring. :)

you are NOT a failure.

[soney]

*hugs* take a deep breath

[peanutmomma]

Enough sleep? What's that? :)

I just wish the whole "No!" thing was a little easier. He doesn't seem to listen to me for the most part. His latest trick is to try and pull off the babyproofing stuff that we put around the edge of the fireplace. I just have to remind myself that this too shall pass.

deep breath. deep breath. deep breath. :)

[soney]

yeah, enough sleep is hard for me to come by. and it's not even jakob's fault, i just don't get to bed early enough.

one thing i'm trying to show hubby (not train, never train :P) is to say no and then redirect. i find that works much easier. i tell him no for playing with said object (like the satellite receiver with the shiny blue light) and then i move him away over near his toys. if anything, it takes a while to get back there if he's that bent on playing with it. but, usually, he's distracted by his toys and doesn't go back. hubs was just telling him no and leaving him there - well, jakob would just go back to playing with it cause it's right there. we are in the i want it now, i want it now phase and self-control doesn't come for a while yet.

i'm scared of winter and the heater. i am very afraid that he's going to get burned if i can't figure out a way to keep him away from it.

good job on the deep breaths. :)

[peanutmomma]

I joke with my WW mommas group that I feel like I'm earning APs with all the redirecting. We say no, move him away, and he goes right back to it.

I wonder if he's bored with the toys that he has. Maybe I need to rotate them out or something.

Don't know what to do about the heater - anyway to barricade it without blocking the airflow?

[may_lyn]

oh, sweetie, every mom spends a great deal of time wondering what in the world is keeping her from killing her baby(s). i sure did.

i raised 2 non main stream kids. all sorts of trials and tribs. and i'm here to tell you, it's doable. notice i didn't say easy. :D i'm pulling for you!

[peanutmomma]

Thanks.

I just hate second guessing myself. He's happy, he's healthy, and apparently he has developmed his momma's sense of grinchiness.

And I have icon!love for you too - Thanks for the Eddie goodness. :)

[may_lyn]

ah, i loves me some eddie. :D and the internet is only a little broken.

motherhood is the one thing where we're all on our own. most of us do a great job, but we have to give ourselves a bit of credit.

you're doing great.

[peanutmomma]

Thanks again. :)

Tonight was a prime example of why I struggle. The boy was sitting in the middle of the floor, giggling away, when all of a sudden he started crying. After about 30 seconds, it was giggles again.

I looked at Chris and said, "What? I didn't do anything. I was dead at the time. I was on the moon...with Steve."

Everything I needed to know about life, I learned from Eddie.