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[pdutogepi]

So I've been feeling like a ball of angst today, I know it's me PMS-ing mostly, but still, blah. Had to happen while I have to be around people too, that is when I don't want to be around strange people the most... I so wish I didn't have work tomorrow |Something I haven't mentioned recently, is for over a week now I've been getting weird feelings

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[chaosoftwilight]

It doesn't sound stupid to me hun ;~; Anxiety can be quite bothersome.. I'm kinda surprised at how similar some of this sounds to my own experiences ahah. :') I've never had these heart flutterings though..but it's probably nothing serious like you said.

I become far too nervous sometimes as well, and can't help it at all >.>" I take deep breaths and close my eyes, it helps me calm down sometimes (although i'll still get that feeling of disorientation, gah). I can't swallow tablets or pills either. I think for most meds you can crush the tablets into powder though, right?

Anyways i hope you will feel better hun :'3 ♥

[pdutogepi]

Thanks Twi ^^

Yeah, it's amazing how much I can relate to others with similar problems.
The heart flutterings I'm trying to not be too worried over (Since worrying just makes 'em worse anyway) since I'm not getting any symptoms of a bad heart XD

I'll have to try taking deep breaths next time I'm feeling really nervous and if they do say medication is the best for it, I'll have to ask them about crushing the tablets up. I'm a bit iffy with having to take medication as I look at my dad and what he has to take for things and I don't wanna end up like that XD;

[sel]

It's not stupid. Everyone goes through these things some times, it's natural. Try breathing exercises, they can calm a person really well.

I hope every thing is okay, feel better~

[pdutogepi]

Thanks ^^ I'll have to try some breathing exercises :)

[sapphireluna]

If your job makes you feel sick, you should definitely find a new one. You sound like you hate it there, too. Start looking for a new job. Now! Even if you think there's nothing, search anyways! You need a job that doesn't deal with customers. I'm like that too.

[pdutogepi]

Well, it's not making me feel sick as such, but I do think it's part of the cause of my my heart is doing this fluttery, jumpy thing.
I do need a job that doesn't deal with customers, I have looked, but around here there is nothing but shops... shops and pubs :/ We do have factories and depots around the outskirts of town, but I wouldn't be good at them either due to the fact that I'm small and not very strong.

I will keep looking though in the hopes I'll find something.

[sapphireluna]

Then can't you just ask to be put off the cash register and do another job like stacking stuff on shelves or cleaning or something? That seems less stressful.

[pdutogepi]

I used to stack shelves when I first worked there. Because I'm small and not very strong, I was too slow and couldn't put out what they expected me to put out, thus they moved me to the checkouts.
You still have to deal with customers while doing that too. If they ask where something is, we have this set strict guideline of what you must say and do. If you do it wrong and the customer was a mystery customer (Someone who comes in, pretends to be a customer and marks us on how we do) then the store gets a bad score.

We have cleaners that come in and do most of the cleaning, but late at night we do some around the checkouts and I always try and voulenteer to do it, but I can only do that while it's quiet.

[viewtiful_jeff]

If making an appointment is a problem, you could always ask a parent to make it for you?

At any rate, if it does turn out your nervousness is a problem to the point of being a medical issue, there's nothing wrong with medication or a psychiatrist or anything like that. Besides that, if you just wanna talk or vent or something, you can always hit me up.

[pdutogepi]

I'll be able to make it if I push myself, even though I'll be way nervous about it XD I'll probably will have to make the appointment in person though, I wouldn't be able to do it over the phone at all, even if that's the more easier option.

Thanks Jeff ^^

[vande_bot]

You've taken the first step to help, you posted the issue here for people to help :)

[pdutogepi]

Yeah :)
I've been wondering for a good few years now if my nervousness was something that should be looked into, but I always worried that maybe there was nothing wrong with me other than just being generally shy and un-confidant.

My parents both suffer from things like this too. My dad was really bad with his nerves when he was my age and apparently would panic if he was too far from his home. My mum doesn't like social situations at all and will rarely agree to go out to her work outings. I'm the same as her, I won't go to any outings arranged by work either, I know for a fact I'll just be sat in a corner feeling out of place :/

[vande_bot]

The 'air' around you, rubs off on you. I hate going to work socials etc. I'd rather be at home at my happy pc.