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stop
A quagmire stuck in tacky darkness
Like a shirt drenched in sweat
This indecision sticks,
An endless regression,
And wisdom says "Ctrl-C". -
things that make me sad
Arizona and the BP oil spill.
That's all. Nothing else makes me sad at all. Which is a lie. But that's all I wanted to say. -
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I'm too gullible. -
imbibe
I sometimes think that I am on the cusp of major breakthroughs in my personal life with respect to being open with people, or feeling as though I am able to express myself honestly to them. Other times, I think that I have made negative progress; that I am becoming too rigid to live or to share my life with anyone ( Read more... ) -
i give up
I can't seem to figure it out, how do you have well grounded, well directed confidence? All sorts of fake confidence are easy; arrogance, cockiness, insecurity projected as an "I'll just keep saying I can't fail" kind of attitude. How do you attain the real thing without losing more valuable things in its pursuit ( Read more... ) -
balancing
It's hard to balance allowing free time for the unexpected and new possibilities and people while being deliberate at maintaining and developing existing relationships, personal or spiritual growth, ongoing projects, one's person and posessions, and exploration of previously identified possibilities. It's easy to see how things like sleep and ( Read more... ) -
Rambling at the End of the Weekend
All the words I can think to write seem selfish. That seems to be part of it; I can only write selfish things ( Read more... ) -
ideals and life
The more ideals you try to live up to, the harder it becomes to live. But aren't they still worth pursuing? If I wish to do what is right and what is necessary, perhaps I must be willing to either die or focus or both ( Read more... ) -
improvement
I think I've improved my abilities to keep track of the things I have to do, to determine what I should do next, and even to find time to devote to doing so, but I am still lacking in actually doing them when I sit down to do so, which is key. -
from elsewhere
Perhaps one learns to how to deal with and accept imperfections and limitations while still trying to change them and pursue what is important. One learns not to fear making mistakes in part by understanding that one can ask forgiveness, make corrections, or learn something from mistakes. One realizes both that things not done can damage what we ( Read more... )