FIC: Bad Things 27 and 28/?
Title: Bad Things
Author: xenalvr
Fandom: Guiding Light
Pairing: Olivia/Natalia
Rating: NC-17 eventually
Disclaimer: CBS, P&G, Telenext et. al. own these characters, not me.
Summary: Canon up till the scene after the kiss, which is reenacted in this fic.
A/N: Happy Chinese New Year, folks! I'm gonna stuff myself silly today, rawr! oh, and Happy V day as well :)
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27
Olivia could not stop thinking about Natalia. It was crazy, this incessant thinking, imagining, remembering. And whenever she managed to put Natalia out of her mind, there she would be in flesh and blood, smiling at her with those tantalising lips, flashing those ridiculously attractive dimples, flipping her long, dark hair.
Christ Almighty. Whoever would have thought that Natalia Rivera could wield such power over her?
Olivia was familiar with the courtship dance--that is, if you could call stalking a prey and reducing them to a quivering mass with your body that. She was used to thinking that everyone, including herself, had an agenda.
"Knock knock."
Olivia looked up and frowned. Talking about agendas... "People generally knock on doors before they open them, and not verbally after they've let themselves in," she said, leaning back in her chair and glaring at a smug looking Doris Wolfe, who had waltzed into her office and sat herself down across her. "And by all means, sit down, take your shoes off, and how about a foot massage..." Olivia muttered under her breath. "What do you want?"
"I have to reschedule our date for tomorrow night." Olivia frowned and Doris rolled her eyes. "See, I told you, why don't you and Natalia just go have that dinner and drinks already and just send me the bill? It's obvious that I'm neither needed nor remembered."
Olivia crossed her legs and studied Doris' face silently. After a long moment, Doris cleared her throat and touched a tentative hand to her face. "What? Do I have something on my face?" she asked, looking around Olivia's office to see if there was anything in there that could catch her reflection.
"You know, for someone who comes across as cocky and self-sufficient, you're actually... not," Olivia said finally, thinking that her observation on the mayor could be used on herself. "We'll do it next week. You're not getting out of it quite so easily," Olivia said firmly. She didn't know why she bothered... or maybe she did; maybe she recognised a little of herself in Doris Wolfe. Both of them were perceived as strong women. Their hard exterior made it difficult for anyone to get close to them and so, over time, people stopped trying. It did nothing for their self-worth--that, Olivia could testify. She wouldn't go as far as giving Doris a warm smile and a hug but dinner and drinks peppered with snarky comments--that, she could do. Natalia would be so proud of her.
"You don't need me there," Doris persisted.
Olivia nodded and watched the mayor's face fall a little. "But we want you there."
It was amazing what a few kind words could do. Olivia could see Doris' countenance brighten almost immediately. It brought her back to a time where Natalia's unrelenting patience with her had been the only spark of hope in her life; she felt a small surge of happiness at the knowledge that she was in love with someone so kind and good.
In love with? Olivia's eyes widened and she deposited her forehand in her hand, much to Doris' amusement.
"For your information, inner dialogues are not heard externally and therefore cannot be followed by the people around you. So dish." Olivia frowned at the expectant look Doris was giving her. "What? You can say things like wanting me around and I can't listen in to your thoughts?"
Olivia's frown deepened. "They're completely irrelevant."
"You know you wanna talk about it," Doris said persuasively and scooted forward in her seat. "You've got enough handle on me to know that you can tell me things."
Olivia bit on her lower lip and gave in. It felt rather good to have someone to talk to, actually. "I think I'm in love with Natalia," she said in a small voice.
Doris waited. When Olivia did not continue, she threw her hands up in the air. "That's it? That's what's gotten your panties in a wad?" She ignored the dark look that Olivia sent her way. "Anyone who's been around the two of you would know that! So what's the problem? She evidently feels the same about you."
"I've never..." Olivia tried to find the right words. "Everyone I've ever loved... or thought I've loved... there was always something attached to it. It was never this simple..." she trailed off, gazing unseeingly at the pot plant behind Doris.
Doris finally understood. "You're freaking out because you think that Natalia doesn't want anything from you."
Olivia flicked her eyes to Doris. "She doesn't."
Doris sighed. "Of course she does. She wants your love and your loyalty. She probably wants you to share your life with her. That's a lot bigger than money and power--which, I'm guessing, were what you wanted of people and vice versa. And you're freaking out because you probably want the same things from her."
Olivia bit on her lower lip looking unconvinced. Doris decided to try another tack. "Can you imagine seeing her with someone else, sharing what the two of you have?" she asked with a lifted brow.
"What? No!" The thought of Natalia kissing someone else... touching someone else... or even looking at someone else the way she looked at Olivia was a highly displeasurable one.
"I rest my case." Doris pushed herself up from her chair. "I do find our talks rather engaging," she commented as she made her way to the door.
Olivia snorted. "As much as I hate to agree, I do too," she said grudgingly. She picked up her pen from her desk and clicked it with her thumb. "So. Next Friday?"
Doris nodded. "Next Friday."
28
Olivia hurried to her car, thoughts of Natalia and her conversation with Doris roiling around in her head. Natalia and she were going to pick Emma up together and grab some dinner before going home.
Home. With Natalia. The thought put a smile on Olivia's face. This was unlike anything she had ever known. Feeling this happy about something this ordinary was something she had never experienced before. She drove her car around to the front of the hotel where Natalia was supposed to be waiting for her. Olivia felt her heart rate pick up speed at the prospect of seeing Natalia and had to roll her eyes at herself. They were at work together the entire day, for heaven's sake.
But when she pulled the car up next to Natalia, she couldn't help the smile that played on her lips when their eyes met. Loopy, Olivia thought to herself happily. She was definitely loopy. "Hey," she greeted when Natalia got into the car.
"Hey," Natalia smiled shyly as she pulled the car door shut. She wanted to lean over and kiss Olivia but it seemed a little silly to do that when they had just seen each other at work.
"So, uh, let's go get Emma from Jane's and... pick somewhere to grab dinner at?" Olivia said as she put the car in gear.
"Yeah, I..." Natalia trailed off and bit her lower lip. "Olivia, I feel like I haven't seen you all day even though I obviously have," she said finally.
Olivia looked over to Natalia, loving the way her heart reacted to what Natalia just said. "No, I... feel the same," Olivia said, placing her free hand on Natalia's before focussing her attention on the road again. She smiled when Natalia threaded their fingers together in her lap. Giddy, Olivia thought. She was definitely giddy as well as loopy. Somehow, after her unexpected chat with Doris Wolfe that afternoon, Olivia finally felt at peace with what was happening.
"Where would you like to go for dinner?" Natalia asked in her soft, lilting voice, breaking Olivia out of her reverie.
Olivia shrugged. "Emma can choose. I'll be happy anywhere with the two of you," she said as she swung a left.
Natalia felt a blush and a smile creep up her face at the offhand comment. She couldn't remember a time Olivia did not make her feel this way even though logic told her different. Olivia was sweet and wonderful and funny... "You make me so happy," Natalia said softly, caressing Olivia's profile with her eyes and her hand with her own.
Olivia did not know what to say to that; Natalia seemed to have the ability to reduce her to speechlessness. So she brought their linked hands to her lips and pressed a firm kiss on the back of Natalia's hand, hoping that Natalia would know how she felt.
*
Olivia trailed after Natalia and Emma as they entered Company. Natalia slid into the booth across from Olivia and Emma, chuckling softly at Emma's rendition of a song that her classmates and she had come up with in school that day. She watched Olivia roll her eyes dramatically and stick her fingers into her ears when Emma repeated the song yet another time.
"Emma, sweetie, how about we order some dinner first before you continue?" Natalia suggested. "I'm sure you must be starving by now and we'll have to give Buzz time to make your burger."
"Yay, I love Buzz burgers!" Emma said, stopping in the middle of her song. Olivia shot Natalia a grateful smile that made Natalia feel warm all over. "Hurry up, Mommy! Buzz has to make the burgers!" Emma urged.
Olivia widened her eyes and scoffed in disbelief. "Oh, so now it's 'Hurry up, Mommy'. Who was the one who forgot her book at Jane's and made us go back and get it?" she asked Emma with a pointed look.
"If you weren't late, I wouldn't have taken the book out to read, Mommy," Emma explained, shaking her head.
Natalia laughed at Emma's sharp wit. "I don't know about you two but I'm ready to order."
"Three Buzz burgers then?" Olivia said, looking at her dinner companions for affirmation. Then she made a show of sighing loudly before she slid out of the booth and went to the counter, where Buzz was standing, cleaning a glass. "Hey Buzz."
"Olivia," Buzz said warmly before he frowned. "What's wrong with you?"
Olivia lifted a brow. "What do you mean?"
"You look happy," Buzz said, making Olivia's smile widen. "All right, who's the lucky man?"
"What lucky man?" Olivia asked, feigning innocence. For some reason, it pleased her that her happiness was so obvious to everyone around her. "There's no man in my life," she said coyly.
"Uh huh." Buzz looked like he didn't believe her but he didn't press her either. "So what can I get you today?"
"Three Buzz burgers, one with extra onions," Olivia said. "Three sodas and some fries to share."
"Coming right up," Buzz said. Before he went into the kitchen, however, he leaned over the counter. "So who's the lucky man?" he asked in a hushed voice.
Olivia could not contain the smile that spread across her face. "Natalia." She barked out a laugh at the look of surprise on Buzz's face before she turned on her heels and walked back to the booth where her two favourite people were seated.
TBC
Author: xenalvr
Fandom: Guiding Light
Pairing: Olivia/Natalia
Rating: NC-17 eventually
Disclaimer: CBS, P&G, Telenext et. al. own these characters, not me.
Summary: Canon up till the scene after the kiss, which is reenacted in this fic.
A/N: Happy Chinese New Year, folks! I'm gonna stuff myself silly today, rawr! oh, and Happy V day as well :)
1&2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26
27
Olivia could not stop thinking about Natalia. It was crazy, this incessant thinking, imagining, remembering. And whenever she managed to put Natalia out of her mind, there she would be in flesh and blood, smiling at her with those tantalising lips, flashing those ridiculously attractive dimples, flipping her long, dark hair.
Christ Almighty. Whoever would have thought that Natalia Rivera could wield such power over her?
Olivia was familiar with the courtship dance--that is, if you could call stalking a prey and reducing them to a quivering mass with your body that. She was used to thinking that everyone, including herself, had an agenda.
"Knock knock."
Olivia looked up and frowned. Talking about agendas... "People generally knock on doors before they open them, and not verbally after they've let themselves in," she said, leaning back in her chair and glaring at a smug looking Doris Wolfe, who had waltzed into her office and sat herself down across her. "And by all means, sit down, take your shoes off, and how about a foot massage..." Olivia muttered under her breath. "What do you want?"
"I have to reschedule our date for tomorrow night." Olivia frowned and Doris rolled her eyes. "See, I told you, why don't you and Natalia just go have that dinner and drinks already and just send me the bill? It's obvious that I'm neither needed nor remembered."
Olivia crossed her legs and studied Doris' face silently. After a long moment, Doris cleared her throat and touched a tentative hand to her face. "What? Do I have something on my face?" she asked, looking around Olivia's office to see if there was anything in there that could catch her reflection.
"You know, for someone who comes across as cocky and self-sufficient, you're actually... not," Olivia said finally, thinking that her observation on the mayor could be used on herself. "We'll do it next week. You're not getting out of it quite so easily," Olivia said firmly. She didn't know why she bothered... or maybe she did; maybe she recognised a little of herself in Doris Wolfe. Both of them were perceived as strong women. Their hard exterior made it difficult for anyone to get close to them and so, over time, people stopped trying. It did nothing for their self-worth--that, Olivia could testify. She wouldn't go as far as giving Doris a warm smile and a hug but dinner and drinks peppered with snarky comments--that, she could do. Natalia would be so proud of her.
"You don't need me there," Doris persisted.
Olivia nodded and watched the mayor's face fall a little. "But we want you there."
It was amazing what a few kind words could do. Olivia could see Doris' countenance brighten almost immediately. It brought her back to a time where Natalia's unrelenting patience with her had been the only spark of hope in her life; she felt a small surge of happiness at the knowledge that she was in love with someone so kind and good.
In love with? Olivia's eyes widened and she deposited her forehand in her hand, much to Doris' amusement.
"For your information, inner dialogues are not heard externally and therefore cannot be followed by the people around you. So dish." Olivia frowned at the expectant look Doris was giving her. "What? You can say things like wanting me around and I can't listen in to your thoughts?"
Olivia's frown deepened. "They're completely irrelevant."
"You know you wanna talk about it," Doris said persuasively and scooted forward in her seat. "You've got enough handle on me to know that you can tell me things."
Olivia bit on her lower lip and gave in. It felt rather good to have someone to talk to, actually. "I think I'm in love with Natalia," she said in a small voice.
Doris waited. When Olivia did not continue, she threw her hands up in the air. "That's it? That's what's gotten your panties in a wad?" She ignored the dark look that Olivia sent her way. "Anyone who's been around the two of you would know that! So what's the problem? She evidently feels the same about you."
"I've never..." Olivia tried to find the right words. "Everyone I've ever loved... or thought I've loved... there was always something attached to it. It was never this simple..." she trailed off, gazing unseeingly at the pot plant behind Doris.
Doris finally understood. "You're freaking out because you think that Natalia doesn't want anything from you."
Olivia flicked her eyes to Doris. "She doesn't."
Doris sighed. "Of course she does. She wants your love and your loyalty. She probably wants you to share your life with her. That's a lot bigger than money and power--which, I'm guessing, were what you wanted of people and vice versa. And you're freaking out because you probably want the same things from her."
Olivia bit on her lower lip looking unconvinced. Doris decided to try another tack. "Can you imagine seeing her with someone else, sharing what the two of you have?" she asked with a lifted brow.
"What? No!" The thought of Natalia kissing someone else... touching someone else... or even looking at someone else the way she looked at Olivia was a highly displeasurable one.
"I rest my case." Doris pushed herself up from her chair. "I do find our talks rather engaging," she commented as she made her way to the door.
Olivia snorted. "As much as I hate to agree, I do too," she said grudgingly. She picked up her pen from her desk and clicked it with her thumb. "So. Next Friday?"
Doris nodded. "Next Friday."
28
Olivia hurried to her car, thoughts of Natalia and her conversation with Doris roiling around in her head. Natalia and she were going to pick Emma up together and grab some dinner before going home.
Home. With Natalia. The thought put a smile on Olivia's face. This was unlike anything she had ever known. Feeling this happy about something this ordinary was something she had never experienced before. She drove her car around to the front of the hotel where Natalia was supposed to be waiting for her. Olivia felt her heart rate pick up speed at the prospect of seeing Natalia and had to roll her eyes at herself. They were at work together the entire day, for heaven's sake.
But when she pulled the car up next to Natalia, she couldn't help the smile that played on her lips when their eyes met. Loopy, Olivia thought to herself happily. She was definitely loopy. "Hey," she greeted when Natalia got into the car.
"Hey," Natalia smiled shyly as she pulled the car door shut. She wanted to lean over and kiss Olivia but it seemed a little silly to do that when they had just seen each other at work.
"So, uh, let's go get Emma from Jane's and... pick somewhere to grab dinner at?" Olivia said as she put the car in gear.
"Yeah, I..." Natalia trailed off and bit her lower lip. "Olivia, I feel like I haven't seen you all day even though I obviously have," she said finally.
Olivia looked over to Natalia, loving the way her heart reacted to what Natalia just said. "No, I... feel the same," Olivia said, placing her free hand on Natalia's before focussing her attention on the road again. She smiled when Natalia threaded their fingers together in her lap. Giddy, Olivia thought. She was definitely giddy as well as loopy. Somehow, after her unexpected chat with Doris Wolfe that afternoon, Olivia finally felt at peace with what was happening.
"Where would you like to go for dinner?" Natalia asked in her soft, lilting voice, breaking Olivia out of her reverie.
Olivia shrugged. "Emma can choose. I'll be happy anywhere with the two of you," she said as she swung a left.
Natalia felt a blush and a smile creep up her face at the offhand comment. She couldn't remember a time Olivia did not make her feel this way even though logic told her different. Olivia was sweet and wonderful and funny... "You make me so happy," Natalia said softly, caressing Olivia's profile with her eyes and her hand with her own.
Olivia did not know what to say to that; Natalia seemed to have the ability to reduce her to speechlessness. So she brought their linked hands to her lips and pressed a firm kiss on the back of Natalia's hand, hoping that Natalia would know how she felt.
*
Olivia trailed after Natalia and Emma as they entered Company. Natalia slid into the booth across from Olivia and Emma, chuckling softly at Emma's rendition of a song that her classmates and she had come up with in school that day. She watched Olivia roll her eyes dramatically and stick her fingers into her ears when Emma repeated the song yet another time.
"Emma, sweetie, how about we order some dinner first before you continue?" Natalia suggested. "I'm sure you must be starving by now and we'll have to give Buzz time to make your burger."
"Yay, I love Buzz burgers!" Emma said, stopping in the middle of her song. Olivia shot Natalia a grateful smile that made Natalia feel warm all over. "Hurry up, Mommy! Buzz has to make the burgers!" Emma urged.
Olivia widened her eyes and scoffed in disbelief. "Oh, so now it's 'Hurry up, Mommy'. Who was the one who forgot her book at Jane's and made us go back and get it?" she asked Emma with a pointed look.
"If you weren't late, I wouldn't have taken the book out to read, Mommy," Emma explained, shaking her head.
Natalia laughed at Emma's sharp wit. "I don't know about you two but I'm ready to order."
"Three Buzz burgers then?" Olivia said, looking at her dinner companions for affirmation. Then she made a show of sighing loudly before she slid out of the booth and went to the counter, where Buzz was standing, cleaning a glass. "Hey Buzz."
"Olivia," Buzz said warmly before he frowned. "What's wrong with you?"
Olivia lifted a brow. "What do you mean?"
"You look happy," Buzz said, making Olivia's smile widen. "All right, who's the lucky man?"
"What lucky man?" Olivia asked, feigning innocence. For some reason, it pleased her that her happiness was so obvious to everyone around her. "There's no man in my life," she said coyly.
"Uh huh." Buzz looked like he didn't believe her but he didn't press her either. "So what can I get you today?"
"Three Buzz burgers, one with extra onions," Olivia said. "Three sodas and some fries to share."
"Coming right up," Buzz said. Before he went into the kitchen, however, he leaned over the counter. "So who's the lucky man?" he asked in a hushed voice.
Olivia could not contain the smile that spread across her face. "Natalia." She barked out a laugh at the look of surprise on Buzz's face before she turned on her heels and walked back to the booth where her two favourite people were seated.
TBC