[fic] heart. break.
Title: heart. break.
Author: parkchoongjae
Pairing: GRI (Jiyong/Seungri)
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG13
Words: 530
Summary: Jiyong and Seungri do it again.
...
You don’t know where it ended.
Did it even start?
You’re running for your life now. It’s too late.
Damn this treadmill. Or should you say, damn your brain (or heart) for thinking too much.
“Oppa, are you okay?”
Beside you was Minji, who is looking at you curiously.
“Yeah. I’m okay.”
Yeah, right.
-
Pzzzzt.
From Jiyong.
Can we talk?
Reply.
What is it, Hyung?
From Jiyong.
Parking Lot Old Building. 10 minutes.
And you wonder why Jiyong still has this control over you. Because in less than 2 minutes, you’ve changed into normal clothes and you’re now walking out of your new building already.
-
You fixed your hoodie over your head as you approached the white car. Okay, no Jiyong in front. You open the backseat door and climb in.
“Hey.”
“Hey.”
“Are you okay?”
“I don’t know.”
And all of a sudden, his lips are on yours and you’re trying to pull away but he’s surprisingly stronger and you can hear him moan, begging for access. You remember your brain not functioning very well so you give in and parts your lips as his tongue slides inside you. It’s hot and needy and it’s not your typical kind of kiss. It’s emotional and it’s selfish and you know this shouldn’t be happening. You run your fingers through his hair and you pull him in more to deepen the kiss. If being selfish feels like this, then let’s be selfish this time.
Just this time.
You pull apart and you’re both gasping for much needed air - but his forehead is on yours. He’s looking at you and you feel like a dementor sucked everything. Your air, your life. He touches your cheek - his fingers warm and you miss it so damn much. But you flinch and look away.
“Hyung, we can’t be doing this. I thought we agreed already.”
“I know…”
“It’s unfair to them.”
You look into his eyes and you know he knows what you mean.
“I can’t help it. I miss you. I miss ‘us’. ”
“Us? What ‘us’? There’s no ‘us’, Hyung. There has never been an ‘us.’”
You felt your heart slowly breaking. As if the cracks weren't enough.
“I am still in-“
You hear him pause.
“I am trying Seungri. I’ve been doing very well, right?”
“Well, yeah. Until now.”
You hear yourself chuckle.
You look into his eyes and you see him for the first time - in a long time.
“Okay, I’m not going to say sorry because I am not regretting this. And I know I didn’t force you either. You kissed me back, babo. How about we just keep this hush hush? They don’t need to know anyway.”
“Hyung, are you crazy? Of course this should be hush hush. They’d kill us both, if they knew we’re doing this - again.”
Now it was his time to laugh.
“Yeah. Yeah. They can be scary. ”
You look at him and despite the loneliness in them; his eyes shine with a glint of hope.
Hope for what? You don’t really want to know.
However, you can’t help but smile because damn until now, you can’t live without this boy.
;;AN: I am depressed okay. T_T Sorry if this is... blah. And all over the place. Comments are very much welcome still.
Author: parkchoongjae
Pairing: GRI (Jiyong/Seungri)
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG13
Words: 530
Summary: Jiyong and Seungri do it again.
...
You don’t know where it ended.
Did it even start?
You’re running for your life now. It’s too late.
Damn this treadmill. Or should you say, damn your brain (or heart) for thinking too much.
“Oppa, are you okay?”
Beside you was Minji, who is looking at you curiously.
“Yeah. I’m okay.”
Yeah, right.
-
Pzzzzt.
From Jiyong.
Can we talk?
Reply.
What is it, Hyung?
From Jiyong.
Parking Lot Old Building. 10 minutes.
And you wonder why Jiyong still has this control over you. Because in less than 2 minutes, you’ve changed into normal clothes and you’re now walking out of your new building already.
-
You fixed your hoodie over your head as you approached the white car. Okay, no Jiyong in front. You open the backseat door and climb in.
“Hey.”
“Hey.”
“Are you okay?”
“I don’t know.”
And all of a sudden, his lips are on yours and you’re trying to pull away but he’s surprisingly stronger and you can hear him moan, begging for access. You remember your brain not functioning very well so you give in and parts your lips as his tongue slides inside you. It’s hot and needy and it’s not your typical kind of kiss. It’s emotional and it’s selfish and you know this shouldn’t be happening. You run your fingers through his hair and you pull him in more to deepen the kiss. If being selfish feels like this, then let’s be selfish this time.
Just this time.
You pull apart and you’re both gasping for much needed air - but his forehead is on yours. He’s looking at you and you feel like a dementor sucked everything. Your air, your life. He touches your cheek - his fingers warm and you miss it so damn much. But you flinch and look away.
“Hyung, we can’t be doing this. I thought we agreed already.”
“I know…”
“It’s unfair to them.”
You look into his eyes and you know he knows what you mean.
“I can’t help it. I miss you. I miss ‘us’. ”
“Us? What ‘us’? There’s no ‘us’, Hyung. There has never been an ‘us.’”
You felt your heart slowly breaking. As if the cracks weren't enough.
“I am still in-“
You hear him pause.
“I am trying Seungri. I’ve been doing very well, right?”
“Well, yeah. Until now.”
You hear yourself chuckle.
You look into his eyes and you see him for the first time - in a long time.
“Okay, I’m not going to say sorry because I am not regretting this. And I know I didn’t force you either. You kissed me back, babo. How about we just keep this hush hush? They don’t need to know anyway.”
“Hyung, are you crazy? Of course this should be hush hush. They’d kill us both, if they knew we’re doing this - again.”
Now it was his time to laugh.
“Yeah. Yeah. They can be scary. ”
You look at him and despite the loneliness in them; his eyes shine with a glint of hope.
Hope for what? You don’t really want to know.
However, you can’t help but smile because damn until now, you can’t live without this boy.
;;AN: I am depressed okay. T_T Sorry if this is... blah. And all over the place. Comments are very much welcome still.