Apprentice (Dancing lessons chapter 4)
Series: Dancing lessons
Chapter: 4
Written by: Parishs
Inspired by: zzzfreckles
Rating: pg
Summary: Reid is thinking out loud on Anna's couch and get's a big surprise (Reid's POV).
Sequel of the Yule challenge 2014: A Christmas wedding
Following the FFF prompt "Apprentice" (02-20-2015)
Disclaimer: I own nothing
PREVIOUS CHAPTER
I looked at the baby who was sleeping between us, he was so adorable, totally oblivious of the problems in the world, just trusting the people who were keeping him warm. His parents.
We were laying in a kind of 69 position but I wasn’t facing her genitals (thank god, I had never been interested in a woman that way) but her feet. She had cooked my favorite meal, cock au vin, which of course made her speculate about a dick in wine, and we got more giggly after every glass of alcohol we drank. I almost fell asleep on her couch, but she kept me awake with her contemplations.
“What do you want Reid”, she asked and I heard that she had a little trouble pronouncing the words. I could tell her the most ridiculous things or tell her my deepest secrets right now, she wouldn’t remember tomorrow. But it was nice and even cozy to open up to someone like this, it could help me to get the picture, I had no idea what I wanted.
“I need Luke to come back so I can kiss him again”, I said dreamy.
“Haha just kiss? My ass, you are going to fuck him against the wall the minute you see him”, she smirked while she looked at me. “Do you need an apprentice? Someone you can learn the ropes? Is that what makes him so attractive? Do you need your own 50 shades of pink?”.
I laughed out loud. “Did you read that book?”, I asked her.
She shook her head. “No, when I come from the hospital I have to get Tyler and when he sleeps I am so tired that I just look some TV but I usually fall asleep, I don’t have time to read Reid. Did you?”.
I shivered. “No thank you, hetero sex is gross, but I like it that people start to think about what they want. For me a relationship was always like a dark cloud, I didn’t see why people wanted to give up their freedom but since Luke has kissed me I kind of get it. I crave to see him again and smell his scent.
But he isn’t as young as he looks, his grandmother told me he is 30, I still can’t believe it actually, he looks 20, so boyish and fresh. I am so glad that she told me he is okay. She also told me that he needs someone who defrosts him; do you think I have the patience to give him what he needs?”.
With her eyes closed she smiled. “Hell no”, she said. ‘Patience is not your best event Reid but what does a grandmother know anyway? She knows him of course but not in a sexual way, she has no idea what he needs from you Reid.
Just be your lovely self and do what feels good when he is back. He has fallen for you so you have to figure out together what you want and I can’t advise you; hell I made a mess of my own life so why do you think I know how relationships work?”.
The baby made some noise in his sleep. Without thinking I caressed his hair.
“I don’t think Luke is going to need my guidance Anna”, I said. “He has had a boyfriend, something I didn’t and he has a company, so what can I teach him that he doesn’t already know? He can teach me to dance. Maybe I am going to be his apprentice”.
She caressed my foot. “But when he comes back and you have had your way with him, what are you going to do? Plan a date? Is this going to be serious? Are you going to tell him about Tyler? About the patient that died under your hands? How much are you letting him in?”.
My mind went back to the conversation I had with Lucinda; she told me a bit about Luke’s life and the family he grew up in, all the brothers and sisters and how much he loved them.
Maybe Luke would like Tyler, maybe he would resent me for withdrawing from my own child, maybe he would push me to be a kind of father, maybe….
I felt my body tense. I wasn’t ready to start dating at all, to have someone ruining the routine I had. I was happy with my life as it was and I didn’t want his judgment on my decisions.
She felt it of course, my friend Anna, my soul mate in a way. She sat up a little and looked at me.
“Hey” she said. “Don’t do this Reid, don’t freeze again when you like someone, I am sorry that I brought it up, you don’t need to define things yet. Just enjoy being with him when he is back”.
I looked at her. She was right, but she evoked a little panic-moment in my brain with her questions. “I hope he gets back soon Anna”, I said softly. “And you have no idea what I need either, sexually that is, you always think that I am the predator, that I am going to grab him and fuck him till he begs me to stop, but that’s not who I am, not in bed”.
“You don’t need to share that with me if you don’t want to”, she said while she looked at me.
It was the alcohol for sure that I was so open to her, I never talked about sex but I had to share my intense feelings with someone.
“He moaned in my mouth and that was the most erotic things I have ever felt”, I said. “He didn’t want to have sex on the first time so it was all I got from him, his moan and the heat of his cock but it was almost more than I could handle, it was so fucking intense, so full of promise that it didn’t matter.
In fact he was the first guy who said that he didn’t want to sleep with me, that he wanted to postpone the real thing and somehow it makes it special, it makes that I crave for him, that I want him more than I have ever wanted anyone.
But the frightening thing is that it’s not just sexual between us. He somehow seems to get me, he wants to know me for who I am, he wants my opinion. He knows that I don’t need his money so it’s not about that between us either. He doesn’t want to be with me because I am a world famous surgeon but because I am Reid, do you know how refreshing but terrifying that is? This is new to me”.
Her phone beeped and she sighed. “I am not even on call”, she said and looked at the screen. She frowned and showed me the display:
let Reid go to this address in Chicago, Luke will be there too
I googled the address, it turned out to be a shabby hotel in the suburbs. Was this real or a trap?
“Who send it to you?”, I asked.
“Maddie”, she said confused and looked at the screen when it beeped again.
“Trust me Anna” it said, “I got the message from Lucinda”.
I didn’t know what to believe or do, should I go? Was he there? Did he want to see me? Was he taking a risk to meet me, god I hoped not because I would never be able to forgive myself when something happened to him. While I caressed Tyler’s red hair Anna dialed a number.
“What are you doing?”, I asked.
“Calling a cab you fool”, she said. “You can’t drive not can I”.
‘But I can’t go”, I said. “I look like shit and I haven’t showered, I smell like alcohol and my hair is greasy, don’t do this to me”.
She just smiled. “I guess that it doesn’t interest him what you are wearing Reid, he wants to be with you so go, look at him and find out what you need from him. Tell him that you like him. Whatever you feel, tell him, he is taking a risk to see you so make it good!”.
I stumbled to her bathroom and washed my face while looking in the mirror. I looked like a child on his birthday, awake long before his parents came down, full of expectations and hope. I was going to meet him again. Holy shit!.
NEXT CHAPTER
Chapter: 4
Written by: Parishs
Inspired by: zzzfreckles
Rating: pg
Summary: Reid is thinking out loud on Anna's couch and get's a big surprise (Reid's POV).
Sequel of the Yule challenge 2014: A Christmas wedding
Following the FFF prompt "Apprentice" (02-20-2015)
Disclaimer: I own nothing
PREVIOUS CHAPTER
I looked at the baby who was sleeping between us, he was so adorable, totally oblivious of the problems in the world, just trusting the people who were keeping him warm. His parents.
We were laying in a kind of 69 position but I wasn’t facing her genitals (thank god, I had never been interested in a woman that way) but her feet. She had cooked my favorite meal, cock au vin, which of course made her speculate about a dick in wine, and we got more giggly after every glass of alcohol we drank. I almost fell asleep on her couch, but she kept me awake with her contemplations.
“What do you want Reid”, she asked and I heard that she had a little trouble pronouncing the words. I could tell her the most ridiculous things or tell her my deepest secrets right now, she wouldn’t remember tomorrow. But it was nice and even cozy to open up to someone like this, it could help me to get the picture, I had no idea what I wanted.
“I need Luke to come back so I can kiss him again”, I said dreamy.
“Haha just kiss? My ass, you are going to fuck him against the wall the minute you see him”, she smirked while she looked at me. “Do you need an apprentice? Someone you can learn the ropes? Is that what makes him so attractive? Do you need your own 50 shades of pink?”.
I laughed out loud. “Did you read that book?”, I asked her.
She shook her head. “No, when I come from the hospital I have to get Tyler and when he sleeps I am so tired that I just look some TV but I usually fall asleep, I don’t have time to read Reid. Did you?”.
I shivered. “No thank you, hetero sex is gross, but I like it that people start to think about what they want. For me a relationship was always like a dark cloud, I didn’t see why people wanted to give up their freedom but since Luke has kissed me I kind of get it. I crave to see him again and smell his scent.
But he isn’t as young as he looks, his grandmother told me he is 30, I still can’t believe it actually, he looks 20, so boyish and fresh. I am so glad that she told me he is okay. She also told me that he needs someone who defrosts him; do you think I have the patience to give him what he needs?”.
With her eyes closed she smiled. “Hell no”, she said. ‘Patience is not your best event Reid but what does a grandmother know anyway? She knows him of course but not in a sexual way, she has no idea what he needs from you Reid.
Just be your lovely self and do what feels good when he is back. He has fallen for you so you have to figure out together what you want and I can’t advise you; hell I made a mess of my own life so why do you think I know how relationships work?”.
The baby made some noise in his sleep. Without thinking I caressed his hair.
“I don’t think Luke is going to need my guidance Anna”, I said. “He has had a boyfriend, something I didn’t and he has a company, so what can I teach him that he doesn’t already know? He can teach me to dance. Maybe I am going to be his apprentice”.
She caressed my foot. “But when he comes back and you have had your way with him, what are you going to do? Plan a date? Is this going to be serious? Are you going to tell him about Tyler? About the patient that died under your hands? How much are you letting him in?”.
My mind went back to the conversation I had with Lucinda; she told me a bit about Luke’s life and the family he grew up in, all the brothers and sisters and how much he loved them.
Maybe Luke would like Tyler, maybe he would resent me for withdrawing from my own child, maybe he would push me to be a kind of father, maybe….
I felt my body tense. I wasn’t ready to start dating at all, to have someone ruining the routine I had. I was happy with my life as it was and I didn’t want his judgment on my decisions.
She felt it of course, my friend Anna, my soul mate in a way. She sat up a little and looked at me.
“Hey” she said. “Don’t do this Reid, don’t freeze again when you like someone, I am sorry that I brought it up, you don’t need to define things yet. Just enjoy being with him when he is back”.
I looked at her. She was right, but she evoked a little panic-moment in my brain with her questions. “I hope he gets back soon Anna”, I said softly. “And you have no idea what I need either, sexually that is, you always think that I am the predator, that I am going to grab him and fuck him till he begs me to stop, but that’s not who I am, not in bed”.
“You don’t need to share that with me if you don’t want to”, she said while she looked at me.
It was the alcohol for sure that I was so open to her, I never talked about sex but I had to share my intense feelings with someone.
“He moaned in my mouth and that was the most erotic things I have ever felt”, I said. “He didn’t want to have sex on the first time so it was all I got from him, his moan and the heat of his cock but it was almost more than I could handle, it was so fucking intense, so full of promise that it didn’t matter.
In fact he was the first guy who said that he didn’t want to sleep with me, that he wanted to postpone the real thing and somehow it makes it special, it makes that I crave for him, that I want him more than I have ever wanted anyone.
But the frightening thing is that it’s not just sexual between us. He somehow seems to get me, he wants to know me for who I am, he wants my opinion. He knows that I don’t need his money so it’s not about that between us either. He doesn’t want to be with me because I am a world famous surgeon but because I am Reid, do you know how refreshing but terrifying that is? This is new to me”.
Her phone beeped and she sighed. “I am not even on call”, she said and looked at the screen. She frowned and showed me the display:
let Reid go to this address in Chicago, Luke will be there too
I googled the address, it turned out to be a shabby hotel in the suburbs. Was this real or a trap?
“Who send it to you?”, I asked.
“Maddie”, she said confused and looked at the screen when it beeped again.
“Trust me Anna” it said, “I got the message from Lucinda”.
I didn’t know what to believe or do, should I go? Was he there? Did he want to see me? Was he taking a risk to meet me, god I hoped not because I would never be able to forgive myself when something happened to him. While I caressed Tyler’s red hair Anna dialed a number.
“What are you doing?”, I asked.
“Calling a cab you fool”, she said. “You can’t drive not can I”.
‘But I can’t go”, I said. “I look like shit and I haven’t showered, I smell like alcohol and my hair is greasy, don’t do this to me”.
She just smiled. “I guess that it doesn’t interest him what you are wearing Reid, he wants to be with you so go, look at him and find out what you need from him. Tell him that you like him. Whatever you feel, tell him, he is taking a risk to see you so make it good!”.
I stumbled to her bathroom and washed my face while looking in the mirror. I looked like a child on his birthday, awake long before his parents came down, full of expectations and hope. I was going to meet him again. Holy shit!.
NEXT CHAPTER