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I'm still not bored here. I didn't think I'd feel so tired of being around, though.
What happened? I used to be okay with people leaving. It's like it all hit at once. Abel, Joshua, Alexstrasza, Yuki, Evangeline, Doa, Ken, Itachi, Yukari, Raine, Jun, so many others. Maybe I was lucky they lasted so long in the first place, around here. But Joshua wasted a year and never cared anyway. And if any of them come back again, they won't remember. If we make friends again, they'll probably just leave again. What's the point? It would be kinder if we lost our memories of people who left too.
I've been here over three years and now I'm twenty. Is this what life always will have to be like? At home, and here too? [She stops herself there because... even at home, she's not sure how much longer she can count on surviving, and it feels very final, to write something like that.]
It's not fair to the friends I have here but right now I just wish I could escape. [Even from herself, and all those memories...] Maybe I should find someone who can work with memory manipulation again.
[All written.]
I'm still not bored here. I didn't think I'd feel so tired of being around, though.
What happened? I used to be okay with people leaving. It's like it all hit at once. Abel, Joshua, Alexstrasza, Yuki, Evangeline, Doa, Ken, Itachi, Yukari, Raine, Jun, so many others. Maybe I was lucky they lasted so long in the first place, around here. But Joshua wasted a year and never cared anyway. And if any of them come back again, they won't remember. If we make friends again, they'll probably just leave again. What's the point? It would be kinder if we lost our memories of people who left too.
I've been here over three years and now I'm twenty. Is this what life always will have to be like? At home, and here too? [She stops herself there because... even at home, she's not sure how much longer she can count on surviving, and it feels very final, to write something like that.]
It's not fair to the friends I have here but right now I just wish I could escape. [Even from herself, and all those memories...] Maybe I should find someone who can work with memory manipulation again.