54 -- Looking
[there was nothing she could do. She didn't understand what was going on, she can't fight, she doesn't think she's smart enough to find anything that could help. If Chiyo was here, she'd know what to do. She would know where to look, she would know how to make everyone feel better, she would...
But she'd been one of the first ones snatched.
So, Sakaki is on her own, looking through the library. Most of the shelves she thought to search were already mostly empty, cleared out by far smarter people. It left her to halfheartedly pick through what remained. She didn't even know what to look for...
...Eventually, she wanders over to where the children's books are. More for a sense of comfort than anything. The bright colors, the adorable pictures, it's one of her favorite places in the entire castle. Despondently poking through the pages, collecting an armful to show Nanako when she goes to check on her... she eventually comes to a small featureless book that she'd never noticed before, its empty cover standing out amongst the primary colors and happy shapes of the other books]
Mm? [there is an uncertain pause as she opens it... and a horrified gasp as she reads] ...Oh my...
[filtered away from children]
[it takes her a minute to find her voice, it coming out smaller than usual]
I found something. I don't know if it means anything...
[she can't bring herself to repeat what it says. So, there's a ripping sound as she detaches the page with little hesitation, as it's the only thing in the otherwise empty diary, and she tapes it into the journal]
I have decided to keep a diary separate from my journal! I don't know how long it will last, because I'm bad about my main one to begin with, but I want something less public. For whenever I feel like it, anyway.
I have been seeing a man in my dreams for about a month now. He is much taller than than me, and very well dressed. I have been thinking about him all the time and imagine him with me everywhere I go. He's as involved in my life as I am. I keep seeing him and I want him to touch me and talk to me and taste me but I guess we're just not close enough yet. I've begun to see him reoccurring in my dreams, in almost all of them he is with me. He stands there and watches. Sometimes when I'm alone in my dreams, I talk to him, and we talk about stuff I'm interested in. I think he knows everything about me. So far he hasn't spoken to me at all but I yearn to hear his voice when he finally does speak. Until then, I am happy carrying the conversation. I look forward to sleeping now, so I can talk to him. He is always there. I really hope that someday I'll be able to see him when I'm awake because I really like him.
I'll keep trying.
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But she'd been one of the first ones snatched.
So, Sakaki is on her own, looking through the library. Most of the shelves she thought to search were already mostly empty, cleared out by far smarter people. It left her to halfheartedly pick through what remained. She didn't even know what to look for...
...Eventually, she wanders over to where the children's books are. More for a sense of comfort than anything. The bright colors, the adorable pictures, it's one of her favorite places in the entire castle. Despondently poking through the pages, collecting an armful to show Nanako when she goes to check on her... she eventually comes to a small featureless book that she'd never noticed before, its empty cover standing out amongst the primary colors and happy shapes of the other books]
Mm? [there is an uncertain pause as she opens it... and a horrified gasp as she reads] ...Oh my...
[filtered away from children]
[it takes her a minute to find her voice, it coming out smaller than usual]
I found something. I don't know if it means anything...
[she can't bring herself to repeat what it says. So, there's a ripping sound as she detaches the page with little hesitation, as it's the only thing in the otherwise empty diary, and she tapes it into the journal]
I have decided to keep a diary separate from my journal! I don't know how long it will last, because I'm bad about my main one to begin with, but I want something less public. For whenever I feel like it, anyway.
I have been seeing a man in my dreams for about a month now. He is much taller than than me, and very well dressed. I have been thinking about him all the time and imagine him with me everywhere I go. He's as involved in my life as I am. I keep seeing him and I want him to touch me and talk to me and taste me but I guess we're just not close enough yet. I've begun to see him reoccurring in my dreams, in almost all of them he is with me. He stands there and watches. Sometimes when I'm alone in my dreams, I talk to him, and we talk about stuff I'm interested in. I think he knows everything about me. So far he hasn't spoken to me at all but I yearn to hear his voice when he finally does speak. Until then, I am happy carrying the conversation. I look forward to sleeping now, so I can talk to him. He is always there. I really hope that someday I'll be able to see him when I'm awake because I really like him.
I'll keep trying.
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