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[breakmychest]

[Spike is feeling a little broody and a little drunk. Between Isis and his rather depressing chat with Anya, he's not his usual perky self. When he speaks, his voice slurs a little.]

You know, I'm pretty sure this isn't supposed to be a Hell dimension. But if I were to come up with a personal Hell, this'd be pretty bloody close.

[There's a pause

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[daughterofkane]

But there's one great advantage in it, that one's memory works both ways.

[breakmychest]

And how's that an advantage?

[daughterofkane]

It's a poor sort of memory that only works backwards.

[breakmychest]

That's the sort most of us have.

[lord_wizard]

Not all of us have anyone here from our own world.

[breakmychest]

You're bloody lucky, then.

[lord_wizard]

You're probably right. I wouldn't exactly wish this on my loved ones. Odd time for me to be having good fortune, but there you go.

[breakmychest]

Seems like everyone I've ever known's showing up here.

[luckyvalentine]

Someone obviously hasn't been here long enough.

[breakmychest]

Maybe. Or too bloody long. Guess it's all one and the same, innit? Time's relative, especially here.

[luckyvalentine]

[there's a little smirk in her voice now, at all that]

Sounds like you're starting to get the hang of it, anyway.

[breakmychest]

Yeah. Lucky me.

[He mostly sounds resigned.]

How long's it been for you?

[onemanshort]

Learnin' things we shouldn't know... it's troublin' at best.

But it ain't all bad, here.

[breakmychest]

I didn't learn anything. More likely I'll tell something. Seeing as far as I can tell, I'm the furthest forward.

[onemanshort]

Oh.

[a pause]

I honestly ain't sure which is worse. Me, I'm behind everyone from my home, it seems...but now things are comin' out...

They don't wanna tell and I don't want 'em to be true. There ain't really a way to win.

[breakmychest]

I was behind before. Then I took a trip home, found out all the things people had said were true, and came back.

Not much I want to share, though.

[beltbucklerebel]

[there's no way Booth's responding to this. The last thing he wants to do is give Spike more excuses to troll him. But he reads it. And, honestly? He agrees. A lot more than he'll ever admit]