gables birch

[paperhopes]

you're just outside my vision. you're holding big, chunky words that keep slipping off your lips like china plates. it hurts both our ears to hear the sound. we're both embarrased by your clumsiness and hurriedly try to pick up the pieces with yet more words that tumble out like misshapen toy blocks. and maybe that's all they're good for, i guess.

Comments

[missmicah]

wow...sounds like your dealing w/ alot right now. adjusting to college life and all. not to mention this pain that your still dealing w/ from a long time ago, but you've been dealing w/ it for quit some time. why do you hold all of it so close? I mean, I know its hard, but your going to have to let it go. you have to let yourself rid of this painful burden. live your life, its hard, but don't let is disable you from loving and living the rest of your life. You still have many miles to go and many more things to do--keep your chin up. everything will work itself out in the end. God is not going to leave you out in the cold--he has a reason that you've gone through all that. think of the endless possabilities God could use all that for? it doesn't seem like the fure is that great now...but it will get brighter, just take it day by day *please turn the tape over now* naw, just play'n. :) love always micah

[teegerthelemur]

she doesn't hold you captive, you do.

You know man, I can't really relate to you in this situation exactly. But lets take my experience at Liberty. I buried myself dude. That could have been it for me. But God is extremely merciful, and he longs to heal us. Self-hatred is of the devil. God has a plan for you and she is not it. I know that sounds clicheish, but you know me, and i mean that. This is probably all too practical. But leave it to me to simplify a problem to black and white:-)

[paperhopes]

i will concede that once in a while there's a sharp pain. but it's not as much as i make it out to be in writing. usually i'm just working on expression and passion and getting it on paper. she's something that's easy to work with so everything sounds like that. thanks for the concern, tho.

self hatred... i might have that