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I cry. I cry a lot. I cry for everything and for nothing and I never realize the power it has over me until it's too late. I hate that crying makes me feel better most of the time, it makes me feel weak. it makes me feel like I only do it for attention or sympathy. that can't be true, at least not entirely. it's just sometimes I feel so miserable

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[jacqui]

Sorry you're feeling so sad. I used to cry sooooo often, but then I was diagnosed with depression(but frankly who isn't really?)and started taking anti-depressants and that was the end of my being able to feel anything as deeply as I used to. I'm not too sure this is a good thing, but I dont really miss all the suffering and crying, it was so bright, so strong, so acute. I felt everything and everyone's pain. Now it's just that much easier to live in what can often seem like a pretty cruel world, but I can just as easily reframe things and think about everything that's wonderful and beautiful about it.

Oh man I so have to go to bed.

Big hugs,
Jacqui
XOXOXOXO