Today SUCKED

May 14, 2005 03:03

Today was a bitch and a half to make it through. I don't even care right now, and I don't want to update about it, but something in me said I should so here I am ( Read more... )

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the_lady_aurora May 14 2005, 11:08:37 UTC
*hugs* It's a case of damned if you do and damned if you don't by the sound of it. It's awful arguing with the one you love because things are sometimes said in the heat of the moment that are better left unsaid. At least you seem to have it sorted at the moment. Hope it stays that way. *more hugs*

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pandorya May 14 2005, 22:29:43 UTC
So is a case of damned if you do and damned if you don't. All I can say is he has grown up a lot since then, so I hope all the things he has learned will quench my fears. I -am- being a bit paranoid, but there are reasons for that. Meh, today seems to be getting off to a better start:) *snugs*

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xxalwaysbuffyxx May 14 2005, 11:59:48 UTC
My friday the 13th fucking sucked too. Heh. I hope you don't have to go through all that shit again <3

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pandorya May 14 2005, 22:30:05 UTC
-kicks friday the 13th- I generally LIKE that day too -_-

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ehlara May 14 2005, 12:58:30 UTC
It is awful to fight like that, because you both seem like different people to each other. I feel that way all the time, too. And money sucks because it's about 85% of what we argue about.

Stop saying you suck, because A) you don't, and B) it's not very constructive. Think of your past as a lesson. If you need help with your job search, go the Unemployment office. They have books on resumes and interviews you can use, and sometimes even little classes. Also, you're young enough that you might qualify for some youth employment programs. There is absolutely something out there for you, and I know with a little effort you can find it. But your very first task is to repeat after me, "I am a valuable asset to my family and the community. The opportunity I'm looking for is waiting for me." The next time I see you saying you suck, I'm on my way out there to kick your ass. I swear.

<33333 Much love to you and the fam. I just know there is something better waiting around the corner for all of you.

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pandorya May 14 2005, 22:33:23 UTC
I know I should not say I suck, and I know I don't suck. I quite like myself:) I just really do suck where finding a job is concerned. This is not to say that I will always suck in that department, I just have been sucking. That is a lot of sucking -_-

I find if I get to the point where I feel the need to beat myself up a bit, it kicks my ass in to gear to fix my problems. Monday Josh is taking me out to look for work, despite him begging me to take a bit more time to figure out what I want to do. I want to feel proud of myself again:)

Our local employment "helpers" are morons. They don't give a crap about helping people get a job. We live in a smallish community with more people than jobs and they have grown lazy trying to find jobs for the unemployed. Josh tried to go through them, and he was very motivated to get work, but they dicked him around -_- I am going to do it the old fashioned way... pound the pavement XD

Thank you sweetie, you are of t3h adored. *snuglove!muchlove*

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ehlara May 14 2005, 22:46:55 UTC
Enh, you know that I know that government bureaucracy sucks. :) But it might be worth trying the place again. You might run into someone who really wants to help people. There's at least one in every gov't office, I swear. :)

Good luck pounding the pavement, love. I know you'll do well. And don't forget the old adage that "It's easier to find a job if you have a job." You might have to start out with something not-so-great, but experience and a place to get a reference from will help you find the next better one, and so on.

And, I suppose it's OK for you to give yourself a kick in the ass, but really, I hate it when you say you suck, even if it's just "I suck at finding a job." Say "I have been less than successful at finding a job, but will keep trying." That's so much more positive. :) (You might wanna try working on that sleep cycle again, too. That truly sucks, I realise this, but you'll be glad you're already starting with it when you find a job.)

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pandorya May 14 2005, 22:51:47 UTC
THAT is one thing I have, a good resume. After working at IIJ and being an administration assistant, I have two very good references and a shit load of things that I did at the job. It looks good. I got told I was overqualified to work at a video store... that pissed me off as I want to work at one.

I will try not to say I suck, just for you:)

Sleep cycle? Yeah, bad. I always wait until I have a job to get it in check, seems to work for me for some odd reason. My brain gets up and is awake when I have something important to do ^^

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messages May 14 2005, 15:28:59 UTC
*snuggles you* :( fighting with someone you love is difficuilt. i hate hate hate fighting with my friends/family/a close guy friend that i love. its so hard. i hope things will be okay with you and josh, and i hope you have a better saturday than friday. i love you

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pandorya May 14 2005, 22:33:54 UTC
I hate fighting with anyone I care about. It is too hard and it never feels right. Did I mention it is confusing? Fweh. *snugsloves*

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the_vendetta May 14 2005, 20:41:32 UTC
Hi, Sadie!!! I just jumped back into the LJ game and I re-added most everyone, including you. Hope you add me back.

Post-related-- I don't have a job since Zack left and I feel the same way as you. =/

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pandorya May 14 2005, 22:34:19 UTC
HIIIII!! I would LOVE to add you back! Glad you are doing the LJ thing again. How are you doing hon?

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the_vendetta May 14 2005, 22:37:09 UTC
I'm good! I could kill him for leaving, but I'm good! How are you, Muffin?

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pandorya May 14 2005, 22:48:40 UTC
I am glad that you are doing good! And yeah @ him leaving -_-

As for me? I am doing alright ^^ I need to do some tweaking in my life, but things have been worse *nods*

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