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[paikan]

I told myself I wouldn't post here anymore since I'm just such a depressing mess, but since it was the GW fandom that got me into LJ and that brought me into contact with her, and this is my last real link with the fandom, I had to say--

RIP Sunhawk

You will be missed more than I could ever hope to express.

Comments

[bleedtoblue]

Hugs. She was certainly a huge part of the GW fandom and will be missed.

[paikan]

*hugs back* she was a huge part of the GW fandom, and will (frankly) continue to be. her fics are as amazing as they ever were. they aren't enough to show how amazing she was as a person, but they will at least be there for internet eternity.

[jukebox_csi]

I was in shock when I read the post. It made me so so sad to hear that. Just this past December, she was posting the 12 days and there was no indication of the struggles she was going through. She will be missed.

[paikan]

shock describes it really well. i realized that i knew Sunhawk for over 15 years, ever since i asked to host her on my site and was so thrilled when she said yes. she was like a gw touchstone.

[nyw]

I just wanted to drop by to give you a hug. I was an avid fan of a little piece of gundam wing back in the good ol' days. I only just returned to this fandom and was also saddened to find out about Sunhawk. So I wanted to say, I appreciate you. I appreciate the childhood you gave me by collecting all those fic; the moments of nostalgia you gave me by keeping the site alive.

It sounds like life is difficult for you right now. I wish you hope. I wish you well.

[paikan]

Thank you so much for contacting me! Sometimes I feel like my site existed in a vacuum and I seriously wonder how many people even knew about it. It always makes me feel good to know that other people loved my site as much as I did. ^_^

Losing Sunhawk was a big deal. I've been in contact with her daughter and I still can't answer her last e-mail without tearing up. I'm working up to it.

And, look, you caught me on a good day! Well, a good evening. This morning was another mater entirely. Life... doesn't seem to like me or have much use for me the older I get. It's like the boss who won't fire you outright but finds little ways to make you miserable. But it is what it is and I'll just stop here since everything else I might say is coming out all miserable in my head...

[babyshanryu]

I took time off from everything, came back and Sun is..she's gone??

My heart is breaking.

ALPOGW is still where I went, for the longest time, to read my old favorites.

It was one of the few sites that was still around for GW. Many a night i sat in my tub as a teen, browsing for new authors and old favorites.

Thank you for those yyears, and first introducing me to Sun. <3

[paikan]

*hugs* Thank you so much for sharing. I always love to hear how much people appreciated my site. I am eternally grateful to the existence of AO3 so that the fics housed at my site will have an internet forever home. And, now that I'm past the crying phase of grief, I am grateful that Sunhawk will always have a presence there, too. Reading her fics, even now, I am reminded of when I 1st found her so very long ago and how awestruck I was when she not only wanted to be on my site, but also wanted to be my friend.