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[pacifyinghand]

What is your most pleasant memory of your mother, or a mother figure in your life?

[ooc: doubles as possible action log for roommates 8)]

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gdit I'm supposed to be on hiatus XDD

[blacksheepgirl]

What a stupid question.

[blacksheepgirl]

If every person they meet calls them a monster, how do their own wishes or actions matter? It will...change nothing. It is much simpler to be what people believe.

[pacifyinghand]

Simpler, perhaps.

But we are not defined by others. If we were, the world would be a much different place.

We are who we choose to be. And I see no monsters, here.

[blacksheepgirl]

Not defined by others- how can you say that? We do not get to decide...how others treat us. Now matter how a person tries, they are still bound by what they are given. If the world will permit you nothing, how can you be anything?

[pacifyinghand]

Our worth will never be determined by how others perceive us - but by our actions. They are what will truly define you.

[blacksheepgirl]

If you're so wise, then explain to me; what actions of a little girl could turn the world against her? What actions of a helpless child could convince her own mother she was the devil?

A life defined by others' fear, by their blind hatred of a thing they didn't understand. Not by her actions.

[pacifyinghand]

I am sorry for the suffering you've been made to endure.

Sometimes this world is cruel to us - cruelest most to its most innocent. But that cruelty is blind... and undeserved. You are not defined by it, but what you choose to do with your life after enduring it.

[blacksheepgirl]

Again, a person who doesn't understand. If you are not even given a choice, how can you make one?

[pacifyinghand]

But you have.

You've made the choice to let your circumstances define you instead of defining yourself.

[blacksheepgirl]

I could do nothing! I couldn't speak, could not even look at another person without being reviled! What would you have had me do?

[She's being much more free with this information than she normally would- the subject of mothers was the biggest nerve anyone could have hit.]

[pacifyinghand]

Even if they revile you... even if you are hated for that beyond your control...

All you can do is all you can to alter their perspective, to open their eyes to the truth, and have faith one day... someone will. And then, perhaps... many someones, until you are no longer so alone.

You cannot give up hope. I know there are those who can see you for more than a "monster."

[blacksheepgirl]

I was a child. From the day I was born, the world has not wanted me. No one could-

[And she stops there. Because that's kind of not true. Not anymore. Maybe. A little. In a way. Discedo was screwing with her head in that way.]

[pacifyinghand]

Make no mistake. You have been mistreated and wronged... and your feelings of hurt are more than justified.

But do not let it embitter you. Do not hate the world... if you do, then you will never be able to be loved by it.

And you cannot say you are uncared for... that you are incapable of being cared for. As much will never be true.

[blacksheepgirl]

["Too late for that," she wants to retort. But...]

...it was always true before I came here.

[pacifyinghand]

I'm sorry.

I pray it will not be so when you return.

[blacksheepgirl]

I don't want...to go back there.