im home take me drunk randy where are you simon i hate you and kristin is a slut i sawherinthehottub with simon yesterday.

Maybe I didn't put in the effort..maybe I didn't put in the time. I am fed up with this Nikki mess...SIMON IT'S OVER! NEVER EVER EVER AGAIN WILL I EVER UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES SLEEP WITH YOU! AND FORGET ABOUT TONIGHT. THAT'S FINAL!

I didn't get anything for christmas.
Surprise, surprise.

I don't think it's really over between Nikki and Simon. I'm going to throw away the gift I bought him. I'm doing all I can to stay away from the booze, especially because of Christmas. It hurts so much, seeing them together. I sometimes just park in front of Simon's place because it makes me remember the happier times. I wonder where Randy has ( Read more... )

Simon is so great...I found out that he and Nikki were getting it on, but I'm glad he was honest with me about it....And I'm happy his little fling is over and he'll spend more time with me. I love just sitting outside his apartment, I feel so close to him..and I want to surprise him if he comes outside...but sometimes he does and I drive away ( Read more... )

Last night was my dance-off with kristin_holt I hate to compete with children, but she insulted Blake and I think she has her eye on Simon! Plus, I think she's still pissed about that thing with Randy. Anyway, it wasn't really a fair contest because I don't think she's fully aware of her body yet at such a young age. At any rate, we grabbed spectators to be ( Read more... )

My weekend was great..mostly. First, I left Simon a voicemail asking him to come over to my house for Thanksgiving (which he DIDN'T! I was all ready) and then Friday, with my mascara off (it didn't seem like a good idea..I had spurts of crying all day) I flew to New York to visit my family...they are so crazy, it made me wonder if I am still ( Read more... )

I cooked Thanksgiving dinner for Simon, but he didn't show up.

I am so in love with Simon. Saturday night, we went to a movie together, he asked me to hold his ticket for him, and he held my hand..he seems to have lost weight..I worry about him. He kissed me on my front porch and I let him in, I could feel him in bed beside me and I knew that he loved me as much as I love him. He is such a beautiful man. I ( Read more... )

Laying in bed last night, I could have sworn Simon was there with me. Things are so good, it's like we've gone back to the old days when we were afraid to admit we loved each other. He's always giving me the eye, and he touched my shoulder while he was sitting back down. I love him.