7w.2d

[ourlittlemonkey]

Little BB and I are alive and hanging in, barely.  As anticipated and dreaded, the nausea has picked up even more this week with a good amount of vomiting thrown in for good measure, despite regular maximum doses of Diclectin.  My only coping tool is sleep, lots and lots of sleep.  My back is aching from lying down and sleeping so much.  SO very

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[dellswife]

I'm so sorry you are sturggling so much with the realization that another little one will be joining your family soon. The way your body is reacting it is completely normal to have feelings of sadness or negativity. My goodness, I have to tell myself with the kids NOW that I need to give myself a bit of a break sometimes....I am sure in time during your pregnancy things will change as the nausea and vomiting ( :( ) eventually ceases.
HUGS AND LOVE AND STRENGTH AND PATIENCE AND SERENITY. You can do this!!!

[ourlittlemonkey]

I think my attitude will eventually shift once the vomiting and nausea stops, but for now, the constant state of misery colours everything dark. So biologically WRONG to feel this way about the creation of new life. But I shall persevere. Thank you SO MUCH for the encouragement-- I really, really needed it. I will tell myself that today-- I can do this!

[evel_lin]

*hugs* hun :-( I think nature is very cruel making mothers feel like this

[greyhowl]

I agree. I still feel so guilty about the feelings I had while pg with my third baby.

[ourlittlemonkey]

I just don't understand how this is evolutionary or biologically beneficial for a mother-to-be to feel like terminating to stop the feeling of wanting to die. It's just wrong. Thankfully I know that I've survived this before and can survive it again, with eventually a good outcome. Somehow I will come through this blackness. Thank you for the encouragement, every bit counts right now.

[greyhowl]

Raechelle, I am so sad to read your struggles. Having been there, I just want to offer encouragment. This will not last forever and I promise, it's worth it. I hope the morning sickness gets easier to manage soon!!! (Even though I literally wanted to die when I was pg with August...it got better around 14 weeks. With Roman is another story... I really, really hope you feel better soon!!!!!!!

[ourlittlemonkey]

Encouragement means a lot, thank you. I rushed home from that meeting last night to vomit in my own bathroom and then broke into tears telling Kyle that I don't think I can do this anymore, I might need to consider terminating. All I needed to hear him say was that I CAN get through this and that I have his support. He eventually did say it... So I will keep going, hour by hour during work days and necessary life duties. I really, really hope that that mine gets better by 14 weeks. I *think* I can hold out until then... SO helpful to hear that this suffering is worth it in the end. You are happy with your baby #3, right?!

[greyhowl]

:( I considered terminating #3 as well. Feels awful to say it but it's true :( I still feel so guilty about that.

Meeting August for the first time was magical. I saw him and knew he was mine. It was so intense. My baby 3 is the light of my life. I really can't imagine my existence without him. So worth it :D

[mercyb]

What a bummer you've got a nasty case of morning sickness. Your description made me want to curl up in bed, too. Hang in there. At least you know there's an end to this...eventually.

[eekm]

Oh gosh, I'm so sorry. Your words bring back such awful memories for me. I too considered terminating--it really was that awful. But, I know you are strong enough to get through this. Remember to ask for help--even if most people don't *get* that morning sickness really is that horrendous. I also got IV zofran and an anhistamine suppository that helped a little. I can send the latter if you'd like. But it does make you very sleepy...not sure that is going to work for you right now.

I do remember the feeling of sorrow I felt whenever I'd see a pregnant woman while I was in the *sick* phase. I felt so awful. You'll soon forget all of this. We were just joking about babies (and having another) at dinner this evening.