so things seems to be better around here the past couple of days. at least everyone is talking to each other, nothing that really needs to be said but you know the normal "how was you day?" "good and yours?" "good" you know stupid things like that. but it's a start. i still want to sit down just the two of us and talk about what is really going on ( Read more... )

stress. i feel emmense stress.

sometimes i think it's better when i'm not here so then everyone else doesn't have to hide out in a room away from me. maybe i'm just being emotional but it still hurts when i hear everyone in the room right next to mine laughing and having a great time when i know she purposely went out of her way not to talk to me. i wonder if everyone else feels ( Read more... )

so it's kinda funny how i got yelled at for never being home but then when i am home you say i'm always in a bad mood! weird how that works out eh? perhaps i would be home more often if i didn't feel like i was walking on egg shells everytime i was here.

so one of my room mates isn't talking to me right now, that's makes things fun around here! she says that i'm rude and that i'm a huge bitch who just complains and storms around the house and that i'm constantly in a bad mood. how would she know i'm barely ever here. and when i am i'm either sleeping or everyone else is. this confuses me.

seattle was fun, a much needed break from this place. hopefully now i will be a little more relaxed, although that is highly unlikely. hehe.

isn't it funny how one minute everything can be at perfect bliss and then BAM everything is different and has gone wrong. just a little thought.

well we're a couple days into spring break and nothing has happened. i lead such a boring life. all i do is go to work and go to school. with my spare time spent either at my house or johns. i need to get out more. find a hobby or something ( Read more... )

i miss james. i just spent the last half hour talking to him over the computer tonight and i think i've decided that i either want to go to austrailia to see him or for him to just come home. it sounds like he is just having like the best time though. apperantly tonight he is going to some fashion show or some vip thing with a few of his house ( Read more... )

mmmmm carlo so good! we should be friends more often!