i'm destroyed completely.
and that's the end of it... why did i do this to myself?

i thought i'd forget sooner, or forget period. i've learned that instead I accidentally claimed a bit of ownership i'm finding less than easy to relinquish.

i have no place being or keeping a secret.

i'm my own downfall, as follows tradition,
no surprises here.

we watched 'who's afraid of virginia woolf?' and it was bad idea. it was too real, too memory awakening.. put me in a bad mood. now i need some drugs i think ( Read more... )

The Shins. Tonight.

Elation? yesssss

So i read just now that i updated last 52 weeks ago...i think that's...yeah. around a year ago ( Read more... )

I drink good coffee every morning ( Read more... )

So I just got back from San Fransisco! and it was a rockin time, I'll post pictures.... tomorrow hopefully. California may be terrible in so many ways, but i have to say, maybe it was just the time of year, but looking at the horizon from just about anywhere outside of a city left me in a forgetful awe. the beauty of that state cannot be denied ( Read more... )

jibberish on the notepad for the amusement of a well-desearving denizen here. he's a lot like honey melting on asphalt, he's a lot like a person who knows what they want and don't and has it together. he's a lot like someone who's refreshingly not going to fuck me over or fuck me over and blame it on their psychological issues or push when their ( Read more... )

i dreamt of that rat last night. i don't know what it had to do with anything, but suddenly i saw a close up of it's little face bleeding. it was sniffing blindly with it's head cocked to the side where the eye was missing ( Read more... )

catalina = sooooooo tired of writing. every part of it, the way i'm forced to come up with my own topics time and time again (high school come back please), the idea generation, the staring, the organizing, more staring and finally the typing.. which is heavily-laden with staring ( Read more... )

well, in short, i'm a busybody who should be being much busier. but i truly believe there's only a very small amount of time i can go full force at once without dying. so, papers, you will be shitty. and math tests, you will be averagely passed. violin hands, you will hurt from hasty training ( Read more... )