Fic: Stargazer
Title: Stargazer
Band: B.A.P
Pairing: Implied Banghim, Onesided!Himup
Rating: PG
Warning: bit angsty?
Summary: I would fly you to the moon and back if you would be my baby..
Notes: I was at work and To the Moon and Back came on. Then this happened..
The stars here are so very different from the ones back home.
Late into the night when the others are fast asleep, he sits at the window and lets his gaze scout the sky over downtown Seoul.
Sometimes its like the stars are not even there.
Hidden by smog and clouds so thick he feels suffocated, cut off from something he knows like the back of his hand.
Or his other half.
The stars have always been something he could count on, something he knew how to navigate with the same precision as a seasoned musician. But things are changing.
He doesn't know these stars, and most nights he studies the way they move until he can't keep his eyes open any longer.
But tonight, he's not the only one awake.
Jongup slides from his bunk and tip toes out into the living room. He misses the squeaky floorboard, but Himchan still hears him.
"You should be in bed, Jongup," He murmurs, voice flat. Jongup bites his lip. "So should you, hyung," He replies softly, taking the few steps needed to bring him to Himchan's side. Then he uses his small body to squeeze in behind the commander.
Despite his admonishment, Himchan relaxes into the strong arms that wrap around his waist, and the solid chest against his back.
"It will be okay, hyung," Jongup whispers into Himchan's shoulder. "Yonggukhyung and Zelo will be back from Malaysia soon.."
Himchan hums, wondering when the second quietest member became so perceptive. The knot of anxiety and loneliness eases just a little bit.
"We should go to bed, Jongup-ah," Himchan replies a few moments later, gently untangling himself. His steps are quiet and subdued as he walks back to the bedroom.
But Jongup remains where he is.
He listens for the tell tale creak of the bunk beds before he turns and lets his gaze settle on the distant stars. He doesn't know most of their names, but he's only looking for one.
"Yonggukhyung," He whispers to the empty room, "Please come back soon. Himchanniehyung needs you."
He ignores the twinge in his chest that's been plaguing him lately, knowing what it is even if Himchan does not.
Sometimes the heart is just as cloudy as the night sky.
But the stars will continue to burn brightly either way.
And even if he can't be there the way he wants to be, Jongup knows that eventually they'll be visible again.
Just like Himchan's smile.
That's all he ever wishes for.
Band: B.A.P
Pairing: Implied Banghim, Onesided!Himup
Rating: PG
Warning: bit angsty?
Summary: I would fly you to the moon and back if you would be my baby..
Notes: I was at work and To the Moon and Back came on. Then this happened..
The stars here are so very different from the ones back home.
Late into the night when the others are fast asleep, he sits at the window and lets his gaze scout the sky over downtown Seoul.
Sometimes its like the stars are not even there.
Hidden by smog and clouds so thick he feels suffocated, cut off from something he knows like the back of his hand.
Or his other half.
The stars have always been something he could count on, something he knew how to navigate with the same precision as a seasoned musician. But things are changing.
He doesn't know these stars, and most nights he studies the way they move until he can't keep his eyes open any longer.
But tonight, he's not the only one awake.
Jongup slides from his bunk and tip toes out into the living room. He misses the squeaky floorboard, but Himchan still hears him.
"You should be in bed, Jongup," He murmurs, voice flat. Jongup bites his lip. "So should you, hyung," He replies softly, taking the few steps needed to bring him to Himchan's side. Then he uses his small body to squeeze in behind the commander.
Despite his admonishment, Himchan relaxes into the strong arms that wrap around his waist, and the solid chest against his back.
"It will be okay, hyung," Jongup whispers into Himchan's shoulder. "Yonggukhyung and Zelo will be back from Malaysia soon.."
Himchan hums, wondering when the second quietest member became so perceptive. The knot of anxiety and loneliness eases just a little bit.
"We should go to bed, Jongup-ah," Himchan replies a few moments later, gently untangling himself. His steps are quiet and subdued as he walks back to the bedroom.
But Jongup remains where he is.
He listens for the tell tale creak of the bunk beds before he turns and lets his gaze settle on the distant stars. He doesn't know most of their names, but he's only looking for one.
"Yonggukhyung," He whispers to the empty room, "Please come back soon. Himchanniehyung needs you."
He ignores the twinge in his chest that's been plaguing him lately, knowing what it is even if Himchan does not.
Sometimes the heart is just as cloudy as the night sky.
But the stars will continue to burn brightly either way.
And even if he can't be there the way he wants to be, Jongup knows that eventually they'll be visible again.
Just like Himchan's smile.
That's all he ever wishes for.