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[onemoreparadise]

 I just can't get into Christmas this year. Usually I'm so excited for the holidays. I spend forever getting ready for them and making presents for everyone I'm close to, but this year I just.. can't. I feel like I'm becoming like my mom where I just hate the holidays and I have to push myself to just participate. I really don't want hate this time

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[onemoreparadise]

I think for the most part you hit the nail right on the head. I normally love Christmas so much, but this year it's just really been a "whatever" kind of thing. I'm not going to be with my family this year and a lot of things have happened to make me not even want to go home.

The holidays have always been a big family time for me because I'm not religious either, and it's just tearing me up inside. I'm trying to stay positive though, my boyfriend has become part of my family too so I'm trying to hold on to what I have this holiday season, but it's still hard you know?

Anyway, thanks for the kind words :)
I'm sure things will get better.