All is WOE and ANGST and BLACK EYELINER

[one_wingx]

Brr, the whole reason I hesitated about starting one of these is that I knew I would just end up spewing agst and woe about my place in the world onto it. Brr. Rest assured that most of the reason for posting it is so that it's here rather than circling around in my brain making me sad

Comments

[anotherusedpage]

Dude. Your existance in the world is one of the reasons I haven't given up on the whole thing just yet, y'know. It's really hard to see in ourselves what other people see in us; but from where I'm standing, you don't look talentless, boring, stupid or crazy. You look compassionate, considerate, extremely smart, thoughtful, articulate, creative and generally you have a better than passing resemblance to a worthwhile human being.

And knowing when the crazy is just crazy and how to not react is a life skill and a half.

AND now I have a mental image of yourself in black eyeline.

Take care, babe.

[lord_sandwich]

You make it sound like passing exams at Oxford is easy. Really you are neither talentless or useless, you wouldn't be there if you were. Its not like being able to paint or make costumes aren't great talents to have but really there are so many other things in the world as well, don't underestimate how useful it is to be both clever and hardworking.

I still cry and get annoyed about the most pointless things. I don't think its anything you should be ashamed of.

[greylagoons]

I've been beaten to all the points I wanted to make! Daaaaamn. Don't stress - you're excellent and we all have our stupid-triggers.

Proper journal entry tiems for me soon, I've got really LJ-lazy

Hugs xxx

[mentalfirewall]

*hugs* and also *passes over a cup of soothing tea*
For what its worth, I've come to the conclusion over the past three years that science has the ability to make the trainee scientist feel useless and stupid when things go wrong, even when there is nothing you can do about it, it still sucks and can make you feel incredibly low but remember that you really are incredibly talented!
I'll echo theoxfordgirl and say that if you ever want to chat or want a cuppa or if there's anything else I can do to help then let me know.

[the_whybird]

Rest assured that most of the reason for posting it is so that it's here rather than circling around in my brain making me sad.

Other people have responded far more comprehensibly than I could to the actual worries you have, but I do want to emphasise something.

It's okay to share when you're unhappy. It's not whining, and there's nothing wrong with unleashing woe and angst when you're feeling woeful and angsty. The myth of man as an anchor of self-confidence and emotional security is one long past its sell-by-date. Everyone gets upset about stuff sooner or later and it's very rare that this is as trivial as people like to pretend.

Writing your worries down is a bloody good way of dealing with them. Worries swirling around in your head can change shape, duck out of the way when you try to reason your way past it. Worries that are on paper can be dissected and dealt with.