Thanks Inbal. Most of the time I feel alright, I think it might just be something to do with winter dragging on for ages, combined with being under pressure with exams coming up and stuff.
I probably just need to get some exercise really, but I think even posting this on here helps a bit.
Inbal's spot on: the only thing you lack is faith in yourself. I see the talent and creativity in you, and I have absolute faith that you can be anything you want. You just have to reach a point in your life where you believe that, too. That, of course, is the really challenging part. It took me until my late twenties to reach that point, and it wasn't an easy path
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Thank you Kay. I guess you're right, I just have to accept it and try to move on. I don't know if I mentioned this near the time, but when I started my foundation year in Birmingham I was getting quite close to a girl called Kaz. She was really sweet, and I liked her a lot. It then turned out that Lisa liked me, and she seemed sweet as well, and was also very much my type physically. My head was telling me that I should have stuck with Kaz, but I didn't, and I can't help but think that if I had things might have been better for me now. I also went about it in a fairly shitty way. I guess I'll never know how that would have worked out, but you're right and I just need to get on with things.
That's a really funny thing - both Jen and I remember Kaz, and we both felt (at the time) that she was a better bet for you than Lisa. Given that we never met either of them, that's based on nothing more than intuition, and is absolutely no guarantee that things really would have been better - but it's something we both felt. That said, the early stages of a relationship are always pretty awesome. There's nothing to say you wouldn't have ended up in a bad place with Kaz down the line, for different reasons
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I won't say a lot, otherwise I'll simply repeat what Kay and Inbal have already said. But I too think that you have enormous potential. You're an extremely smart guy (especially for being such a young one, no offense to all the other guys out there) in terms of morality, common sense and academics. I feel that you are one of the rare people on this planet that probably could do absolutely anything you set your mind on
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Again, thanks, and again, you're right. A really large part of me wants to get in touch with her and explain, and I'm sure I could find her number from somebody... but I know that it'd probably just make things worse. To be honest she's probably forgotten about it by now, but I still feel bad, and I'm angry at myself for screwing up an opportunity to be with a really great girl, and for really stupid reasons. I think I'm probably repeating myself, so I'll leave it there.
I'm still on MSN, and also GTalk now too. My addresses are whatevillurks@hotmail.com and gwynder@gmail.com respectively. It'd be great to talk once in a while, I miss our late night chats(well, they were late night for me, anyway) :)
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I probably just need to get some exercise really, but I think even posting this on here helps a bit.
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I'm still on MSN, and also GTalk now too.
My addresses are whatevillurks@hotmail.com and gwynder@gmail.com respectively. It'd be great to talk once in a while, I miss our late night chats(well, they were late night for me, anyway) :)
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