A girl that went to school with me died at the beginning of April, and it really didn't hit me for a few weeks. I was kind of close with her but not as close as you were with this guy. I'm really sorry about what happend, and it will not be easy at all for you to get over this, because there are some nights i sit down and think about my memories with Eryn and its hard. She had a kid and everything and a million friends. SOunds like Marcus did too. I just want you to know that it looks like you have a lot of people here for you, but i will tell you that it is not easy at all. There isnt going to be a day that goes by that you dont think of him. You will be okay though, just remember that you will see him again one day.
Thanks a lot for your support. ITs so hard for me to leave him there at the funeral home. I just want to talk with him, hang out with him, hold his hand, kiss him...Just one more time. I want my baby back. And i feel retarded for being so upset. But my best friend is gone, the one i called every day to hang out, the one i talked to about everything. It justs seems so unreal, and i cant handle it. I feel like i'm watching this from a different person's perspective. I just want it to be a bad bad dream.
I know exactly what you mean. At Eryns funeral, we all sat there and we were like I know shes just going to get up and be like Haha Im just joking and we would all laugh about it, but it sucks because that isn't what happens. Its going to be hard, SOOO hard, and you will think about it every single day. Your questions are never going to get answered on why it happened, and that sucks because you want them to. You shouldn't feel retarted at all that your so upset, because he was a part of you. I prolly hadn't talked to Eryn in the month before she died, but we were really close in the past and it made it hard. She cheered with us so this year in cheerleading its gonna be different. And like all the things that remind you of him are gonna get you thinking, but you have to remember the good times. You might not be able to think about it too long without crying, but it will get easier, not anytime soon, but it will.
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